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Not feeling too happy right now. SLIGHT TMI!
a year ago
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I've known about this for a couple weeks now, and it's had me upset since the day I found out.
Hunter had a vet appointment a couple weeks ago. For the most part, everything seemed fine. That is, until I learned a piece of information that really upset me. I discovered that one of Hunter's testicles is much bigger than it should be. (or much smaller, I can't remember which). The vet informed me that the cause of this was either he had a cyst or else testicular cancer. The vet did tell me that she wasn't 100% positive he had cancer, but based on what she knows, it seemed very likely. Hearing this absolutely broke my heart. I was told my options as to what could be done to find out for sure. The best option being to have him neutered, because they'd need to test for the cancer, but neutering him is the only way they can. I needed to check my finances, so I said I'd get back to her via phone the next day to make sure I could cover everything.
Well, I did. After mulling things over, and deciding that I really didn't want to risk losing him on the possibility he COULD have it, I called the vet back and agreed to set up the appointment to have him neutered.
Now, I have to openly say here, that this was the hardest decision I've ever had to make with Hunter. When I first bought him over 12 years ago, I promised myself I'd never get him neutered. I told myself I'd avoid that because I didn't see the reason since he'd only ever be around me and my roommates anyway. I have adamantly stood by that promise to myself and to him all this time. When I finally decided that I was going to go through with it that day, I was beating myself up over it, saying how I feel so bad that, through no fault of his own, I have to break my promise not to do it, because he now might die if I don't. I hate myself for this, but I know it will potentially save his life.
The appointment is on the fifth of the month, and I'm doing what I can to show Hunter as much love as I can before it happens. No, he's not dying, but I still feel bad this has to happen.
Hunter had a vet appointment a couple weeks ago. For the most part, everything seemed fine. That is, until I learned a piece of information that really upset me. I discovered that one of Hunter's testicles is much bigger than it should be. (or much smaller, I can't remember which). The vet informed me that the cause of this was either he had a cyst or else testicular cancer. The vet did tell me that she wasn't 100% positive he had cancer, but based on what she knows, it seemed very likely. Hearing this absolutely broke my heart. I was told my options as to what could be done to find out for sure. The best option being to have him neutered, because they'd need to test for the cancer, but neutering him is the only way they can. I needed to check my finances, so I said I'd get back to her via phone the next day to make sure I could cover everything.
Well, I did. After mulling things over, and deciding that I really didn't want to risk losing him on the possibility he COULD have it, I called the vet back and agreed to set up the appointment to have him neutered.
Now, I have to openly say here, that this was the hardest decision I've ever had to make with Hunter. When I first bought him over 12 years ago, I promised myself I'd never get him neutered. I told myself I'd avoid that because I didn't see the reason since he'd only ever be around me and my roommates anyway. I have adamantly stood by that promise to myself and to him all this time. When I finally decided that I was going to go through with it that day, I was beating myself up over it, saying how I feel so bad that, through no fault of his own, I have to break my promise not to do it, because he now might die if I don't. I hate myself for this, but I know it will potentially save his life.
The appointment is on the fifth of the month, and I'm doing what I can to show Hunter as much love as I can before it happens. No, he's not dying, but I still feel bad this has to happen.
david31
~david31
I'm sorry you're going through all of this, but I'm sure Hunter will appreciate it. It's sad, but it's just one of those things. 'big bunny hugs'.
Wally Wolven
~scatterpaws
OP
Right. *hug*
david31
~david31
'hug'
TimidGrizzly
~timidgrizzly
I can hear your anguish about Hunter's condition. I also know you will find a path to accepting your decision.
Wally Wolven
~scatterpaws
OP
It's hard, but I just keep reminding myself that this will potentially save his life.
