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a year ago
IN NOMINE SALVATORIS DOMINI
I'm the big 38. Woo! Hubby got me a cute cake (link) and my gift from him is a shelving unit so I've more room for bigger and more enclosures for my tarantulas. If you told me 5-6 years ago I'd be keeping tarantulas, I'll say "You friggin' are crazy!" Now I have a real soft spot for these eight legged giants of the arachnid world, that I am asking for gifts on such to help me expand my arachnid hobby.
It has got to a point I want to specialize in arboreal species (Tarantulas that live in the trees or tall places.) Especially the ornata species, or the ornamental spiders. These tarantulas hail from India, with beautiful fractal patterns, brilliant colors and the easy to tell sexual dimorphism (Arachnophobia warning link.) However, these tarantulas exhibit a very spicy behavior, near teleporting eye blinking speeds, and very medically significant venom that causes so much pain to make tough men cry. AKA, NOT FOR BEGINNERS OR INTERMEDIATE. Don't worry: I have one I raised to an adult, an ornamental peacock tarantula. I have another I am raiding the ornamental regalis to further leanr how to handle these spicy spiders.
I am also thinking of getting huntsman spiders too. Big speedy bois and gurls! I'm very grateful my husband is helping me expand on this hobby.
Also I'm still getting mentally better slowly, I've improved significantly by a lot. I will be taking therapies soon. My psychiatrist says I will benefit the most from PTSD therapy. And for my harm OCD, I'm learning to not let terrible thoughts invade my head for long. I'm taking this guy's advice to heart: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0k7.....now-NoahThomas
(But also remember if you have intrusive thoughts that's upsetting the balance of your life, to have professionals at yourside. Do not depend on what you find online alone.)
I found another fur who suffers the same thing where his spouse keeps the knives and guns locked away from his reach. We're learning from each other what we do about it. Having someone else in a fandom that I like that also suffers from intrusive thought, makes me feel like I'm not alone in this.
Right now I'm also aiming for exposure therapies. Almost the same for people with exposure therapies for phobias, I too will be doing therapies under a watchful eye around weapons and tools that can cause harm like kitchen knives. I need to kick my amygdala in the ass and tell it that it's okay to be around such things and have such thoughts as everyone gets them. My brain was targeting my morals and desires as a person, putting it all in the spot light and making me feel as if I'm a monster. This can drive people crazy to the point of su***de because they think they are saving people from themselves. I was near that myself a few times.
It has got to a point I want to specialize in arboreal species (Tarantulas that live in the trees or tall places.) Especially the ornata species, or the ornamental spiders. These tarantulas hail from India, with beautiful fractal patterns, brilliant colors and the easy to tell sexual dimorphism (Arachnophobia warning link.) However, these tarantulas exhibit a very spicy behavior, near teleporting eye blinking speeds, and very medically significant venom that causes so much pain to make tough men cry. AKA, NOT FOR BEGINNERS OR INTERMEDIATE. Don't worry: I have one I raised to an adult, an ornamental peacock tarantula. I have another I am raiding the ornamental regalis to further leanr how to handle these spicy spiders.
I am also thinking of getting huntsman spiders too. Big speedy bois and gurls! I'm very grateful my husband is helping me expand on this hobby.
Also I'm still getting mentally better slowly, I've improved significantly by a lot. I will be taking therapies soon. My psychiatrist says I will benefit the most from PTSD therapy. And for my harm OCD, I'm learning to not let terrible thoughts invade my head for long. I'm taking this guy's advice to heart: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0k7.....now-NoahThomas
(But also remember if you have intrusive thoughts that's upsetting the balance of your life, to have professionals at yourside. Do not depend on what you find online alone.)
I found another fur who suffers the same thing where his spouse keeps the knives and guns locked away from his reach. We're learning from each other what we do about it. Having someone else in a fandom that I like that also suffers from intrusive thought, makes me feel like I'm not alone in this.
Right now I'm also aiming for exposure therapies. Almost the same for people with exposure therapies for phobias, I too will be doing therapies under a watchful eye around weapons and tools that can cause harm like kitchen knives. I need to kick my amygdala in the ass and tell it that it's okay to be around such things and have such thoughts as everyone gets them. My brain was targeting my morals and desires as a person, putting it all in the spot light and making me feel as if I'm a monster. This can drive people crazy to the point of su***de because they think they are saving people from themselves. I was near that myself a few times.
I could never handle a tarantula. The fear of being bitten and the terror of what their venom could do makes me avoid spiders of any kind the same way I avoid snakes.
I totally understand you and it's not a hobby for everyone. While no tarantula has ever fatally killed a healthy human, it's possible to be allergic to their venom. Or their bites can cause secondary infections that will require emergency life saving treatment. Also their smaller cousins, the true spiders, many species of true spiders can pack venom to kill an adult human male with ease. It's a hobby that the person is willing to take risks.
GIBBE HUNTSMAN SPIDER
I will give you all the pets if I'm allowed to get a huntsman spider!
Spouse Jedi mind tricks will not work on me..... for a while.