family??

you didnt list it so just asking

i hope you can find someone to be with
isolation is a weird thing as you can be alone in a crowd as well as be overwhelmed within 5 minutes of conversion once a month

its up to you to figure out how to get out of it
i would help you if i could but i dont see how

Yeah I think add too, but family is a most complex story apart.
Nope anyone who's become my friend/mate become a target.

there are people like me who will stick by others until they PROVE to not be worth it themself instead of because someone says something about them
it is just unfortunate that genuine good people is such a rare thing

there is alot you can do to work against it however by making it clear that people can come and talk to you if they find an issue and that let them know there is a asshole targeting you for whatever fucked up reason

i sincerely hope you can find someone you can glue onto that will do the same in return for a healthy long term friendship

I am not an immaculate saint. I know very well why I have been isolated from groups. And it is for the simple reason that I have values, principles, morals and my own way of thinking. And some people don't like that, especially those who make these strategies. Because they see that they can't control me and I'm a bastard who won't shut up.

But this last time I don't know why and who.

nobody is really a saint
having values, principles and morales is good its what makes you a individual worth a dam
if people cant accept others for having a will of their own then those people are not worth your time
modern issues is mostly due to people bending over for people who dont deserve such leniency

have a spine and keep it straight
then all those who are not worth it in the end will show their true colors and let you know to throw them away
just remember to reevaluate from time to time as on occasion you will be wrong

and its perfectly normal to be wrong about things so long as you learn from it
just dont accept the idea that you have ''wrong think'' its usually a lie made by people who wish you nothing good

question what you get from others and question your own everytime to maintain that you are just fine

i really have no idea how to write the meaning of be honest to yourself even when you dont like the truth
it will help you find those who are honest aswell

my mind is going in circles trying to be positive reinforcement for you with a very complex thing that is at the same time quite simple to handle with the right methods but hard to explain with words and iam clumsy with words
but i do recognise in part where you are at and know its something that can be worked out just dont ever give up

Don't worry, it's not like you're putting things into a torn bag that's impossible to fill.
I don't like people who behave like this just to reaffirm themselves and refuse to listen to anything other than empathizing or reaffirming them.
I know all my flaws, like I am very rude in speaking and expressing myself.

There is no need to be a positive reinforcement regarding this journal. To be honest, when I found out what was happening, I didn't care, it was like... "again?" What makes me angry is that there are those who believed it. For example, a person that I try to comfort regarding his deceased mother (In my rough way of doing it, but in a solid way. Not a simple "hug, solved").
And this person's reaction to believing it hurt another.

I only made the post clearly visible so that they would stop because they are not harming me, but they are harming other people.

ah..... i had misunderstood in part then

i see quite alot of people on this site who has it hard for reasons that vary and all they need is just someone being nice to them to let them gain the strength to get through it
and i just cant leave such people alone cause ive been through such things too

Entonces ya somos dos