Hi! I haven't posted here with an update for a while. I won't go into much detail but I'm in a very bad condition mentally and physically. I'll still be working on commissions and maybe opening for more after I finish the batch that I have at the moment however I will not be online very much. If things get worse I may just refund my clients because the wait has already been too long and no one deserves to wait on someone's illness for a piece of art.

I hope everyone a good life and I'm sorry I stopped posting comics and fun art. When will I be back? I don't know. I still want to post art and I might post stuff on occasion outside of commissions but idk. I have so much I want to do but I have no energy.

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long Update/Vent
Things keep getting worse for me and I don't know what to do anymore. I think the best bet is for me to isolate myself again from online spaces minus a few Discord servers I'm in. I don't have any friends that I talk to a lot so it's not an issue for me, I actually miss when I used to focus more on my work and original works. I think I've been too self-indulgent with my art as a form of coping but now I've got nothing to latch onto. My medication doesn't work anymore and my doctor takes over a month to get a hold up on the soonest. My therapist also left me so I've just been losing hope on getting any better. And now I've got a cough that has me gagging and throwing up on the daily with nothing to help get rid of it. It's gotten to a point where I would rather sleep than be awake because I'm either coughing every 5 minutes or I have no motivation to do anything. I haven't brushed my teeth in a year and my dishes pile up. I'm scared of bathing or showering because my cough gets worse with vapor in the air. I finally got a refill for my inhaler and that helps sometimes but my cough doesn't come from my lungs I don't think. And before you ask, I already have a doctors appointment, I've just been waiting a month for the date to go. Other than my cough I've just been completely depressed and thinking of self-harm again. I mean, I've always thought about that since I was 11 but it's just at a peaking point nowadays. I'm tired of pretending to be happy in front of people or the internet but I know being pessimistic isn't good for a social profile and no one knows how to respond to people's issues. I wish I had something to latch onto, even a game or show but I've just lost interest in everything. I don't know when I'll be better again, I don't know if I'll ever get better.