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Gami Cross molested me.
a year ago
What the title says.
CONTENT WARNING FOR SEXUAL CRIMES, ABUSE, VIOLENCE
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Dark Nek0gami, Gami Cross, legal name Alan McDonald, molested me on February 7, 2024.
I pressed charges for sexual battery, but this is Oklahoma, the state that has the highest death rate from domestic violence. I got word this week the DA won't prosecute.
To say I am livid is an understatement. I had to describe and re-live in explicit detail everything that happened, even what fucking hand he did it with. All for nothing.
Now I have to live with a whole new set of traumas resulting from him, I don't even think I have access to victim services since there's no case now, and I have to hold my shit together with no access to therapy. I almost got fired last week because I'm still so fucking reactive from the trauma, but welp, gotta keep just dealing with it solo!
Gami and his husband Razoth? They go on pretending this never happened.
How the fuck DID this all happen?
Gami and I knew each other just over ten years ago. We were almost a thing but I pulled back because I thought I didn't have a chance. We went our separate ways.
We reunited last year and Gami really wanted us to be “The Triforce” together, a spousal trio, and he swore up and down he loved me deeply and wanted to be a family. I believed him. Really, REALLY long story short I moved from British Columbia to Oklahoma.
It went horribly. Gami is so fucking mentally unstable, delusional, not connected to reality, and it was awful. Raz is so introverted he couldn't offer me any emotional comfort, so everything Gami dished out I had to cope with alone. Let me tell you: I do not do well coping with narcissistic and sociopathic behaviors. At all. I was not myself living with them.
I have never felt more emotionally alone and abandoned than I did in that house. It was nothing even close to this “power threesome” and “family” that Gami was promising. Which, given his unstable mental state, I honestly didn't expect much, but holy fuck.
I was also promised by Raz that we'd all go to therapy – never happened. I doubt it would have saved the situation, but maybe I could have walked away without this stupid trauma.
The last few days there was me being molested, me mentally spiraling on what the fuck happened to me, me getting rightfully angry with Gami repeatedly violating my boundaries and being toxic, and him exploding in a violent tantrum (literally – yelling, screaming, slamming things around) so hard that I had an anxiety attack so bad I ended up in the ER as a cardiac patient first before they treated anything psychologically. My own PTSD slammed me and I literally thought he was going to kill me, he was that intense. He probably wouldn't have, but you know, that's the memories that came back to me seeing a big man explode in the way he did. I still felt like I wanted to die in that moment.
I fled before he could put his hands on me. Not that the DA would have cared if he did. I called 911 for someone to take me to the hospital and that was that. I didn't go back.
Then I lived two months in a homeless shelter barely holding my shit together!
Gami is an absolute con, even to his own husband. I got conned, too. I fell for the image he's put out on the internet and not for who he truly is. Can't hide who you are when you live with them 24/7, and once love's blinders are off, everything gets way more clear.
I saw through his child-like persona he puts on and saw his tactics to manipulate people with it. He's 42 years old. He knows exactly what he's doing.
There was a particular conflict Gami and I had where, up until that point, I had thought he was literally SO forgetful you can't ever resolve any conflict with him because he will “forget” about what happened. His husband Razoth informed me that's how his brain just is and he honestly believed that. Gami fully admitted to me that was a lie – he fakes forgetting so he doesn't have to deal with resolving any wrong he does and so he doesn't have to face consequences.
To say I was floored by this is an understatement, and I think that's when I realized exactly what kind of situation I was truly in.
No, I didn't see this entire scenario coming. Before I moved in, I asked Razoth a lot of logistical questions. I even asked point blank if Gami was ever violent towards other people. He told me no which is either a lie, Raz is in that deep of denial about how bad things are, or Gami's lied to him about this, too.
That's another thing: Gami will swear up and down he doesn't lie, but the bullshit that comes out of his mouth is constant. Plus his mouth says one thing, but natural actions and reactions show something completely different. It was an absolute mindfuck living with him.
I wouldn't put up with it, which is another reason shit went as south as it did.
Gami even lied to the cops when they interrogated him. I know this because I got a call from the officer who asked me about the things Gami was telling him, all of which I could easily disprove, and I told him flat out they were lies.
I would have smashed him in court if the DA prosecuted, because I've been to court with this type of guy and they can't keep track of their lies. They get exposed, bam. Done. But the DA didn't let it get to court. They let him walk free and yet AGAIN, Gami doesn't have to face any consequences for things he does!
For anyone curious: Razoth is fully aware he's in an abusive marriage with Gami as the abuser. Raz told me he has a crushing fear of being alone, which is why he puts up with it. I also observed he downplays a lot, the whole trying to bury his head in the sand deal. Probably a result of that fear of being alone. While I do feel bad for him, I'm also angry with him for enabling Gami's delusions to the degree he does. It's absolutely irresponsible and reckless.
Why put this out in the world? I have fucking had it with men violating me and getting away with it. I hate men violating anyone and getting away with it. I lost my virginity being raped by a male at 18. Most of my sexual experiences have either been toxic or literal crimes.
This is why my sexuality took a hard turn to the asexual spectrum and why I swung from pansexual to lesbian. Men are not safe and they never will be. IRL sex is not safe and never will be.
I am also speaking up because Razoth mentioned Gami “drove people away” from them, so I know there's others out there he's revealed his ugly side to. Please know you're valid.
I don't give a single fuck what anyone's opinion is on this, so if you're from his fandom here to throw virtual insults at me lol, I'll just block you. If it gets to more than virtual insults, I'll just use all legal means I have to put a stop to it.
I do not give a single fuck if I become a villain in exposing him like this. I am not like Gami – I don't care about being liked, getting clout, being popular, etc. Internet fame doesn't mean much to me. ESPECIALLY after this latest clusterfuck. Celebrity culture is toxic. Celebrities are fake. I have no desire to be one.
I definitely don't care what Gami has to say because anything that comes from his mouth will be pure fabricated bullshit. He's just going to do whatever he'll do to keep his grip on fans that want to remain ignorant and blind. Whatever. Lying liars lie, and someday karma will eat him alive.
CONTENT WARNING FOR SEXUAL CRIMES, ABUSE, VIOLENCE
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
Dark Nek0gami, Gami Cross, legal name Alan McDonald, molested me on February 7, 2024.
I pressed charges for sexual battery, but this is Oklahoma, the state that has the highest death rate from domestic violence. I got word this week the DA won't prosecute.
To say I am livid is an understatement. I had to describe and re-live in explicit detail everything that happened, even what fucking hand he did it with. All for nothing.
Now I have to live with a whole new set of traumas resulting from him, I don't even think I have access to victim services since there's no case now, and I have to hold my shit together with no access to therapy. I almost got fired last week because I'm still so fucking reactive from the trauma, but welp, gotta keep just dealing with it solo!
Gami and his husband Razoth? They go on pretending this never happened.
How the fuck DID this all happen?
Gami and I knew each other just over ten years ago. We were almost a thing but I pulled back because I thought I didn't have a chance. We went our separate ways.
We reunited last year and Gami really wanted us to be “The Triforce” together, a spousal trio, and he swore up and down he loved me deeply and wanted to be a family. I believed him. Really, REALLY long story short I moved from British Columbia to Oklahoma.
It went horribly. Gami is so fucking mentally unstable, delusional, not connected to reality, and it was awful. Raz is so introverted he couldn't offer me any emotional comfort, so everything Gami dished out I had to cope with alone. Let me tell you: I do not do well coping with narcissistic and sociopathic behaviors. At all. I was not myself living with them.
I have never felt more emotionally alone and abandoned than I did in that house. It was nothing even close to this “power threesome” and “family” that Gami was promising. Which, given his unstable mental state, I honestly didn't expect much, but holy fuck.
I was also promised by Raz that we'd all go to therapy – never happened. I doubt it would have saved the situation, but maybe I could have walked away without this stupid trauma.
The last few days there was me being molested, me mentally spiraling on what the fuck happened to me, me getting rightfully angry with Gami repeatedly violating my boundaries and being toxic, and him exploding in a violent tantrum (literally – yelling, screaming, slamming things around) so hard that I had an anxiety attack so bad I ended up in the ER as a cardiac patient first before they treated anything psychologically. My own PTSD slammed me and I literally thought he was going to kill me, he was that intense. He probably wouldn't have, but you know, that's the memories that came back to me seeing a big man explode in the way he did. I still felt like I wanted to die in that moment.
I fled before he could put his hands on me. Not that the DA would have cared if he did. I called 911 for someone to take me to the hospital and that was that. I didn't go back.
Then I lived two months in a homeless shelter barely holding my shit together!
Gami is an absolute con, even to his own husband. I got conned, too. I fell for the image he's put out on the internet and not for who he truly is. Can't hide who you are when you live with them 24/7, and once love's blinders are off, everything gets way more clear.
I saw through his child-like persona he puts on and saw his tactics to manipulate people with it. He's 42 years old. He knows exactly what he's doing.
There was a particular conflict Gami and I had where, up until that point, I had thought he was literally SO forgetful you can't ever resolve any conflict with him because he will “forget” about what happened. His husband Razoth informed me that's how his brain just is and he honestly believed that. Gami fully admitted to me that was a lie – he fakes forgetting so he doesn't have to deal with resolving any wrong he does and so he doesn't have to face consequences.
To say I was floored by this is an understatement, and I think that's when I realized exactly what kind of situation I was truly in.
No, I didn't see this entire scenario coming. Before I moved in, I asked Razoth a lot of logistical questions. I even asked point blank if Gami was ever violent towards other people. He told me no which is either a lie, Raz is in that deep of denial about how bad things are, or Gami's lied to him about this, too.
That's another thing: Gami will swear up and down he doesn't lie, but the bullshit that comes out of his mouth is constant. Plus his mouth says one thing, but natural actions and reactions show something completely different. It was an absolute mindfuck living with him.
I wouldn't put up with it, which is another reason shit went as south as it did.
Gami even lied to the cops when they interrogated him. I know this because I got a call from the officer who asked me about the things Gami was telling him, all of which I could easily disprove, and I told him flat out they were lies.
I would have smashed him in court if the DA prosecuted, because I've been to court with this type of guy and they can't keep track of their lies. They get exposed, bam. Done. But the DA didn't let it get to court. They let him walk free and yet AGAIN, Gami doesn't have to face any consequences for things he does!
For anyone curious: Razoth is fully aware he's in an abusive marriage with Gami as the abuser. Raz told me he has a crushing fear of being alone, which is why he puts up with it. I also observed he downplays a lot, the whole trying to bury his head in the sand deal. Probably a result of that fear of being alone. While I do feel bad for him, I'm also angry with him for enabling Gami's delusions to the degree he does. It's absolutely irresponsible and reckless.
Why put this out in the world? I have fucking had it with men violating me and getting away with it. I hate men violating anyone and getting away with it. I lost my virginity being raped by a male at 18. Most of my sexual experiences have either been toxic or literal crimes.
This is why my sexuality took a hard turn to the asexual spectrum and why I swung from pansexual to lesbian. Men are not safe and they never will be. IRL sex is not safe and never will be.
I am also speaking up because Razoth mentioned Gami “drove people away” from them, so I know there's others out there he's revealed his ugly side to. Please know you're valid.
I don't give a single fuck what anyone's opinion is on this, so if you're from his fandom here to throw virtual insults at me lol, I'll just block you. If it gets to more than virtual insults, I'll just use all legal means I have to put a stop to it.
I do not give a single fuck if I become a villain in exposing him like this. I am not like Gami – I don't care about being liked, getting clout, being popular, etc. Internet fame doesn't mean much to me. ESPECIALLY after this latest clusterfuck. Celebrity culture is toxic. Celebrities are fake. I have no desire to be one.
I definitely don't care what Gami has to say because anything that comes from his mouth will be pure fabricated bullshit. He's just going to do whatever he'll do to keep his grip on fans that want to remain ignorant and blind. Whatever. Lying liars lie, and someday karma will eat him alive.
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