I dunno, I made a YouTube video recently ranting about being banned in the replies all the time, and it went nowhere. So I guess I'll just journal here for now until I work up the courage to show my face on camera again.

I gotta admit, I've noticed over the years, things I've said and done have caused a change in the algorithm. I stay silent about it but I at one point was causing a lot of chaos online.

I've since stopped my thrashing around and mellowed out with psychs like shrooms by microdosing them. I saw a lot of things about myself that I vibe with and I realize that I'm not as terrible as a person as people say. I'm very unique actually.

Anyways, I have been doing a lot of soul searching lately. I am involved in too many romances and I can't handle all the sudden attention. I don't know what I want for my life, all I know is I want to find someone to share my life with and my experiences with.

I'm lonely, a hopeless romantic, and I want a caretaker. Fuck internet clout, if I could just find that one person who would be there for me, than I think I would truly be happy. But right now my love life is complex and scary, and sometimes I just want to run away.

Anyways I guess that's a life update for me, I want people to know things are going good in my realm as of late, but it's just lonely.