Ok, I have a little bit more time to organize my thoughts.

If you guys see NSFW art of my characters in any capacity, I definitely did not consent to it. I know I make NSFW jokes haha (Some of you guys might have seen sussy nudge nudge art with  huzkey and  eval haha, I was going to take it to my grave but that art was genuinely just to troll lol it doesn't have a nsfw alt. The alt is just atil with tennis balls on her horns, because those horns are definitely not safe for work!) The very most I enjoy is romantic suggestive art, and it's like 100% for the romantic aspect of it because I am a massive romance simp.

I also just want to make it super clear that if you find my characters "hot, cute, sexy, etc" or even fantasize about them there is absolutely NOTHING WRONG WITH THAT! In fact it flatters me if you like my ocs that much haha! It's mainly the fact that the NSFW art pieces were done without my knowledge and seemed to super sexualize ME AS A PERSON/LUST AFTER ME. And that's why I feel so disgusted ;-;

If I'm honestly I do expect that my characters might eventually get nsfw art of them because I'm planning on making games with all of them. If I do make a game with Noelle I do expect that some nsfw will get made (wouldn't that mean that the game is popular? LOL), but that kind of thing is different because it's in regards to Noelle as a character, rather than an extension of me.

Luckily, a million people reached out to me and warned me that there was NSFW art of me and I appreciate it so much you don't even know! I'm glad I saw the flood because I was in the middle of working on a project. That really hit me hard because even though I don't really view Noelle as myself, I know so many people do and that art felt really intentionally targetting/lusting after me, who I am rather than just a character, and it really freaked me out. Honestly I don't even know what emotions I'm feeling right now, it's reminding me of things that happened to me in the past.

I do want to fully articulate that I don't actually have a secret NSFW account, I don't ever EVERRRR get NSFW art. I'm a dragon simp, my soul is that of a filthy weeb. My ideal waifu is not a dragon but June from 999 I'm sorry to break it to you people ;-; ANY ART YOU SEE OF NOELLE THAT IS NSFW IS ALMOST CERTAINLY NOT FROM ME! I genuinely am kind of shaking right now because again this felt really targeted to me.

Funnily enough this isn't the first time someone warned me about NSFW art of Noelle, but that time didn't really bother me and I settled it down quickly because the art felt more like someone was trying to get attention from me or something rather than like someone who was sneakily trying to lust over me haha.

This one was different, however... It really did feel like they were secretly trying to commission art in private coveting me and like that hits me so much harder because it became personal. The art wasn't even vanilla btw... I only got a glimpse of it to make sure it was Noelle but yeahhhhhhh. Luckily the artist is so ridiculously sweet and kind and took it down quickly. I'm so sorry they had to do that, but they reached out to me and were extremely kind, I could not be more thankful. The person who commissioned it used an alt account with no traces or anything connecting him to another account, it was legitimately someone secretly trying to privately commission really, really sus art of me. And that just hits me so hard, I can't even express how I felt when I found out, it felt so violating if I'm honest.

I assume the person who commissioned this follows me or at least keeps up with my pages. I just want to let you know that I contacted the artist, and I have your paypal information and your name. Or, presumably so. If I'm honest, I cannot bear to attach this to an actual person so I didn't even look at the name or anything, I just looked at the transaction ID the artist I reached out to told me about the other stuff. But I do want to let you know that I do have this information out there. I won't release your name honestly, I don't believe in doxxing EVER and I don't like witch hunting and harassing people. I wanted to like potentially share your paypal ID to other artists so I can warn them maybe but I draw the line at like actually sharing personal information and you were dummy enough to like... attach this to an actual name :/ But I want you to know that this isn't just getting art of a character you like, it's a real person behind these things, please never EVER do this again, there are a million other beautiful dragons in this community who actually enjoy NSFW, you should just enjoy those. Please don't ever do this again, your actions do have consequences and if you did this to anyone else, you could have had your entire name and information dropped for people to know. You got lucky this time that I'm not the kind of person who would do that :/

Yeah sorry for this entire page long ramble, my mind is racing right now. I know this might not seem like a big deal or anything but the fact that this was all done in such a sneaky and underhanded manner from someone who obviously did not want to be caught makes me feel incredibly violated... It's one thing to fantasize, which is completely ok, but it's another thing to act out on those urges and commission art of me doing things you were probably aware that I wouldn't approve of... Ok, that's enough rambling on my part. If you actually read this all, I'd be incredibly impressed, thank you for listening to this, and thank you all for your support, I genuinely appreciate it.