I normally don't do this. I suppose I'm selfish that way, but I figured I'd say the usual. Y'know, condolences, my sympathies - all of that. You've heard it in the past few hours and I'm of a similar mind.

I'm not... I don't know; I'm definitely more shocked than anything else. It's that irritating feeling you know; wanting to be more upset, but you can't bring yourself to do it. It's just not at that level of familiarity, but I suppose it's out of... respect? Let's go with respect.

We barely spoke, but we've chatted a little; pretty sure I've still got him on my Steam friends list. Good times.

I don't know where I'd be right now or what I'd be doing without FurAffinity. Maybe I'd be doing what I do now somewhere else, or maybe that 'somewhere else' would've folded like so many other websites before this. Maybe I would've thrown in the towel. Maybe I'd be someone else entirely, with a different hobby - but I think my imagination would be worse off for it, like a caged animal.

But for all of its flaws, FA's always been there. 'Stable' isn't the right word, but consistent, perhaps; in a way we can all come together and joke and point fingers at it and laugh.

And in the end, I'm sure it took some outside support to keep this place running - and I hope it still does, even with his passing. I don't like change. I don't like things going away, no matter how close or unfamiliar. On some level I'm immediately scared. What'll happen next? How long will this keep running? I wonder if this is even a fraction of what it's like to run a place like this.

I'm sure I could look into it if I wanted to - how much money it takes to keep this place afloat. How much hard earned money and time and stress and worry it takes to keep a place like this open. I suppose I don't really want to know; I just want this place to continue. A "stable" place where we can joke and complain and where weird, weird people like me can post their wild, over-the-top fantasies to an audience of fellows weirds. A place he kept around for a long time.

I can't not have some respect for that, you know? On some level, I think, I wanted him to know that - to know my gratitude about keeping this place running for people like me, no matter how small. And I never will.

Rest in peace.





... Hum. I don't know. I just needed to say something about all of this, I guess.

Don't take your good health for granted out there, and have a good night.