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a year ago
I don't engage with the community as I once did.
My 20s were just non-stop talking/sharing and wouldn't shut up about all kinds of things on here.
But I still think back mostly fondly about how fun those years were.
How much more open and social the place made my socially inept hermit ass feel more than any community in years.
So much so, that I actively made efforts to engage with others in the community, friends or not.
Doing events through journals, keys/game giveaways..
Far too many art and game streams, setting up public game servers (Minecraft, Ace of Spades, Killing-floor, DayZ, Tribes, Soku, Gmod, etc),
Open canvas sessions using old ass Hamachi way back then so those who saw could join in on to art just for the fun of it.
Silly little art collabs and doodles.
Those were wonderful times and some of the best few years spent online.
Unfortunately, there is so much over the years that has gone overlooked and ignored that just soured my desire to interact here.
Folks who cared more about numbers, high school level he-said-she-said drama, and Artist(s) purposely using "vent" art displaying crocodile tears/self-inflicted hatred.
That to this day.. has never been questioned but been praised without ever receiving context.
The worst of it is being involuntarily dragged into it even while being supportive and reassuring. It was uncomfortable as hell.
Regrettably, I just remained silent. As said people who took advantage of the fact I just don't enjoy and avoid confrontation especially if it's publically.
I was still learning about myself, especially on the social front.
It was a mess.
Still..If it wasn't for FA, I may not have met the few people in my life who have uplifted and sincerely changed it for the better.
Several that still remain in my life to this day or have never left my mind that I still think of incredibly fondly.
And I may have not met the wonderful person who has made the last few years more bearable and loves me in a way only they could.
Thank you Dragoneer for maintaining and creating such a place for the community that welcomed a weirdo like me.
May you rest in Peace.
My 20s were just non-stop talking/sharing and wouldn't shut up about all kinds of things on here.
But I still think back mostly fondly about how fun those years were.
How much more open and social the place made my socially inept hermit ass feel more than any community in years.
So much so, that I actively made efforts to engage with others in the community, friends or not.
Doing events through journals, keys/game giveaways..
Far too many art and game streams, setting up public game servers (Minecraft, Ace of Spades, Killing-floor, DayZ, Tribes, Soku, Gmod, etc),
Open canvas sessions using old ass Hamachi way back then so those who saw could join in on to art just for the fun of it.
Silly little art collabs and doodles.
Those were wonderful times and some of the best few years spent online.
Unfortunately, there is so much over the years that has gone overlooked and ignored that just soured my desire to interact here.
Folks who cared more about numbers, high school level he-said-she-said drama, and Artist(s) purposely using "vent" art displaying crocodile tears/self-inflicted hatred.
That to this day.. has never been questioned but been praised without ever receiving context.
The worst of it is being involuntarily dragged into it even while being supportive and reassuring. It was uncomfortable as hell.
Regrettably, I just remained silent. As said people who took advantage of the fact I just don't enjoy and avoid confrontation especially if it's publically.
I was still learning about myself, especially on the social front.
It was a mess.
Still..If it wasn't for FA, I may not have met the few people in my life who have uplifted and sincerely changed it for the better.
Several that still remain in my life to this day or have never left my mind that I still think of incredibly fondly.
And I may have not met the wonderful person who has made the last few years more bearable and loves me in a way only they could.
Thank you Dragoneer for maintaining and creating such a place for the community that welcomed a weirdo like me.
May you rest in Peace.
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