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RIP Dragoneer
a year ago
I've been... a bit reluctant to talk about this because I don't know what to say. I never got to know Neer or even really learn about them. To me they were always some vague far off very important person that didn't run in the same kind of circles as someone like me. I felt... Unqualified to talk about them at all since I don't know much about them.
But... Like the majority of the furry fandom and every single person on this site, my life was shaped by their actions. Back before I was on FA I was on dA and well, let's just say there wasn't a lot of engagement there for me. It took some time when I started posting my stories on here, but people started to look at them, and that warm fuzzy feeling of having interaction with my work kept me going. And let me state right now, every person who has ever left a comment on my work (except for troll comments) I have read it and you have no idea how much it meant to me, and motivated me to keep improving and keep turning out stories.
And that's the part right there. This was possible because of FA, because of Dragoneer. Without them I never would have had a chance, I never would have gotten my work recognized and probably would have gotten depressed and given up. I would have given up the biggest passion in my life. I never would have gotten my first book out, I'd not have written a thousand stories, I'd probably just be miserable in some corner of my own that no one ever saw.
So... I'm very thankful for Dragoneer. I'm thankful they gave us FA and a place for all of us to come together and work on own crafts, or just to socialize with others and show appreciation.
There's also a second reason I've been hesitant to speak up. The way they died is a total nightmare situation, screwed over by the American Health Care situation, and I can't help but draw parallels to my own situation. I've had a migraine nonstop for over three years. The pain varies each day but I spend a lot of time in bed hiding from light just waiting for the pain to go down. I've been to so many doctors and done so many tests and we have no clue what the cause is. And, I'm not even sure if any of the doctors care about finding a cause because they make more money if I keep seeing them for more tests and painkiller prescriptions.
Basically... The thought has crossed my head that I could be dying, and no one is giving me the right diagnosis because that's what is better for them. Now, let me state I don't think that's what's happening. As much as it might feel like it some days, I don't think I'm dying. It's just scary. And then while dealing with that hear a story about someone dying while being unable to get a diagnosis because our healthcare system in America is garbage and exists to make money not to actually help people who are sick. It's not hard to imagine the same thing will happen to me, and so when I think about Dragoneer a bit of panic begins to rise in me.
But... I can't just be silent. Considering how much I owe to FA and Dragoneer, it's only right I take a moment to think about and honor someone who has given our community so much. Thank you for everything Dragoneer. I don't know if there's anything after death, but I hope there is, and I hope you are somewhere, getting to enjoy your existence without pain or medical issues. If nothing else, you will always be immortal here. The fandom will never forget you, and you'll live on in all of our hearts and memories. Thank you.
But... Like the majority of the furry fandom and every single person on this site, my life was shaped by their actions. Back before I was on FA I was on dA and well, let's just say there wasn't a lot of engagement there for me. It took some time when I started posting my stories on here, but people started to look at them, and that warm fuzzy feeling of having interaction with my work kept me going. And let me state right now, every person who has ever left a comment on my work (except for troll comments) I have read it and you have no idea how much it meant to me, and motivated me to keep improving and keep turning out stories.
And that's the part right there. This was possible because of FA, because of Dragoneer. Without them I never would have had a chance, I never would have gotten my work recognized and probably would have gotten depressed and given up. I would have given up the biggest passion in my life. I never would have gotten my first book out, I'd not have written a thousand stories, I'd probably just be miserable in some corner of my own that no one ever saw.
So... I'm very thankful for Dragoneer. I'm thankful they gave us FA and a place for all of us to come together and work on own crafts, or just to socialize with others and show appreciation.
There's also a second reason I've been hesitant to speak up. The way they died is a total nightmare situation, screwed over by the American Health Care situation, and I can't help but draw parallels to my own situation. I've had a migraine nonstop for over three years. The pain varies each day but I spend a lot of time in bed hiding from light just waiting for the pain to go down. I've been to so many doctors and done so many tests and we have no clue what the cause is. And, I'm not even sure if any of the doctors care about finding a cause because they make more money if I keep seeing them for more tests and painkiller prescriptions.
Basically... The thought has crossed my head that I could be dying, and no one is giving me the right diagnosis because that's what is better for them. Now, let me state I don't think that's what's happening. As much as it might feel like it some days, I don't think I'm dying. It's just scary. And then while dealing with that hear a story about someone dying while being unable to get a diagnosis because our healthcare system in America is garbage and exists to make money not to actually help people who are sick. It's not hard to imagine the same thing will happen to me, and so when I think about Dragoneer a bit of panic begins to rise in me.
But... I can't just be silent. Considering how much I owe to FA and Dragoneer, it's only right I take a moment to think about and honor someone who has given our community so much. Thank you for everything Dragoneer. I don't know if there's anything after death, but I hope there is, and I hope you are somewhere, getting to enjoy your existence without pain or medical issues. If nothing else, you will always be immortal here. The fandom will never forget you, and you'll live on in all of our hearts and memories. Thank you.
Even though I didn’t know much about him, I am very happy to have found this site, especially because I didn’t feel very welcomed in DeviantArt. I wasn’t anyone special there, but over here, I felt like I was.
I lost my mind when Dragoneer faved one of my pieces.
It made me feel as if the Gods faved it.
This site has brought me so much joy! I have him, as well as so many others to thank for that. I wish I would have gotten to know him a bit more. :(
This is a horrible awful loss. May he rest in paradise. 💕
So regarding your health concern, have you attempted any self-diagnosis since Doctors have been unable to help. I mean it is possible it is something acute and not seen through the testing you've received.
A CAT scan might be good but are probably difficult without a referral but a possible inflammation in the eye or brain regions can cause great pain, similar to what you've described.