So this time a feeling hit me when I was at college, and for the umpteenth time I'm realizing that I'm not making progress there, I can't get serious with the studies, I can't focus and show my dedication to it, and it's not only me that have issues with their studies, but the focus is on me, is like I lost my capacity to study those stuff, and I'm beginning to have a crisis because of it that is bothering me in my life, and hiding this feeling won't be a wise decision to do, so I have to vent it somewhere, even my parents wanting to help me I seem to be refusing their help automatically 😭... I can't understand myself~
Idk how I'll find a solution for this... And because of this it have been making me lose the motivation on making renders, so I might be not doing new renders for a while~ All my disposition is being drained by it... Sorry for this negativity, I'm not the same when I'm depressed.

Welp idk what to do and where to go~