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What makes an image an "illegal image"
a year ago
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Seriously. I know this is going to be controversial for some reason or another but what really defines an illegal image or cp.
I have been told all my life what I happen to look at, and the art in my gallery is cp.
But I think anyone who says that is making baseless judgements. The kids in the pictures I look at are never in sexual scenarios, they look happy, and the art in my gallery is of my sona who is a branch of my own personality. Ya he is depicted as a child, but he is also depicted as an adult.
I think it's really weird to hold such a moral standard of drawn pictures or generated images.
Also I really wish people would stop calling me a pedo when I have no interest of having sex with children. I'm just autistic and want to be a baby in diapers again. Listen, I am not after your children. I do not want to have sex with children. I am tired of putting on this endless song and dance trying to prove myself and my worth and why I'm not any of the things you call me. Some days I feel like giving up entirely.
It's very hard... To feel this small, this defenseless, and to be constantly looked down on, judged heavily and misunderstood. It hurts my very soul knowing people think so lowly of me when I care so much about all of you.
I have been forced lately to say I can't stand humans and humanity, and although I am becoming quite jaded due to years of abuse and mistreatment of my mental issues, I do still have hope... Even though it's a very small amount of hope.
Anyways please stop saying my pictures of happy babies and pictures of childhood innocence are child pornography. You don't know the thoughts that go through my head when looking at these images... And I can assure you none of it has to do with sexual topics. Most of the time I'm just putting myself back in the mind of an infant or toddler and pretending I'm being taken care of like the child in the picture.
The thought of having sex with a child never crossed my mind, and I'm disgusted that just so many humans think that of me just because of how I behave online.
Seriously. Stop lumping me and people like me in with people who harm children. You don't understand the difference between paraphilic infantilism and pedophilia, and just like people who don't understand the difference between schizophrenia and schizoeffective, you people are willingly ignorant and I have had to deal with the brunt of your bigotry for over 20 years.
I have been told all my life what I happen to look at, and the art in my gallery is cp.
But I think anyone who says that is making baseless judgements. The kids in the pictures I look at are never in sexual scenarios, they look happy, and the art in my gallery is of my sona who is a branch of my own personality. Ya he is depicted as a child, but he is also depicted as an adult.
I think it's really weird to hold such a moral standard of drawn pictures or generated images.
Also I really wish people would stop calling me a pedo when I have no interest of having sex with children. I'm just autistic and want to be a baby in diapers again. Listen, I am not after your children. I do not want to have sex with children. I am tired of putting on this endless song and dance trying to prove myself and my worth and why I'm not any of the things you call me. Some days I feel like giving up entirely.
It's very hard... To feel this small, this defenseless, and to be constantly looked down on, judged heavily and misunderstood. It hurts my very soul knowing people think so lowly of me when I care so much about all of you.
I have been forced lately to say I can't stand humans and humanity, and although I am becoming quite jaded due to years of abuse and mistreatment of my mental issues, I do still have hope... Even though it's a very small amount of hope.
Anyways please stop saying my pictures of happy babies and pictures of childhood innocence are child pornography. You don't know the thoughts that go through my head when looking at these images... And I can assure you none of it has to do with sexual topics. Most of the time I'm just putting myself back in the mind of an infant or toddler and pretending I'm being taken care of like the child in the picture.
The thought of having sex with a child never crossed my mind, and I'm disgusted that just so many humans think that of me just because of how I behave online.
Seriously. Stop lumping me and people like me in with people who harm children. You don't understand the difference between paraphilic infantilism and pedophilia, and just like people who don't understand the difference between schizophrenia and schizoeffective, you people are willingly ignorant and I have had to deal with the brunt of your bigotry for over 20 years.
I am seriously not a fan of CP either, and am tired of seeing it myself.
-If you did never and will never sexualize underage characters, you have nothing to apologize for.
Thats it. I can't say much more. Enjoy your art, your hobbies, try to have fun and happynes with it. Try to find a community that is not harmful to you. Block everyone else, they aren't paying your bills or your therapy.
I wish you all the best!
I feel so different lately. Like I'm not even me. Like I've been forced out of my own very nature because of all of the constant hate and vitriol towards me I have been screaming about for a long time. People saying over and over again they want to murder me because everything someone says kill all pedophiles. I see myself there. Not because I am one, but because people have always called me one for being autistic and having infantilism.
I don't like how I have been lumped in and painted under the same brush for so long. It has caused me to feel inhuman. It had caused me to reject my very humanity and become something else entirely to most other people.
People all my life have been trying to help me for some problem I can't even figure out myself. They say I have a problem, they say I'm ill. But I don't see it that way anymore. I am starting to see everyone else as ill. And anyone who gloats about being normal.
I am growing very jaded... to humanity, to animals, to Ai, to the earth, to everything. People have thrown hate my way for so long I am not able to show love as much as I use to...
I am getting tired, worn out, and every damn night I am begging to be euthanized to stop the pain I feel day in and day out with others. I'm sad. I'm depressed. And I literally cannot take this fake love bs anymore.
People say they help me. But in reality they use me, abuse me, tell me I'm insane, and hurt me emotionally. I want to be a hermit. I never want to come outside, because whenever I do I am so aggravated now I threaten fucking geese that I'm gonna punch them in the face right in front of everyone in a public park, and I don't care what people think, and if anyone starts talking back I bark so fucking loud back. (Not actually bark, but I will cuss you the fuck out and make you hurt)
I was never this mean before the internet. I was innocent, loving, kind, and caring. Now... now I just don't give a fuck if most people live or die.
I have been called a pedophile for too long, been called insane for far too damn long. I am so fucking frustrated with all of you. Everyone who has made me sour and turn rotten and turn my heart completely black like ash.
I want people to know... just how much you all have made me suffer. You used me and people like me so long for the butt of every joke because it was easy, and made you famous... but you now have to live with the fact that you may be responsible for me breaking bad like this, and may even be complicit in my future death along with every other babyfur/abdl who was not strong enough and ended up taking their own life. It happens far too often in this community. And I hope people know I am now a soldier, and you are fighting a war with me.
I don't wear diapers anymore, I don't touch myself anymore. I hate about everything about being a human and having a fucking sex drive. I understand now why some people castrate themselves.
Then again. I think every bit of my sexual frustration can be explained and boiled down to the fact I'm walking around with out my full member and had that cut off when I was too young to make a conscious decision.
Seriously.
Humanity made me the way i am, and then fucking completely abandoned me, and then threw me to the wolves to be consumed.
Told me all throughout my early childhood I was gifted and a genius but the minute I said something they disagreed with they labeled me crazy and a problemed child.
I'm sorry if I'm writing a damn novel... I'll stop.
I said that in the end, it's ok to draw any character in any age. I said that you don't sexualize then, so you are doing nothing wrong. The best thing to do is to ignore these attacks.
Internet is harmful in many ways and I had my share of suffering for many other reasons. I also said that it's okay to look for safer and more welcoming groups, so you can have a "net" of friends or places that you know you won't be attacked.
And look for therapy if possible, I really mean this. It helped me to keep working on my art and focus on more positive stuff.
Wish you best, and take care!