You may have noticed that I’m posting more open YCHes, etc; the really short version is, my relationship of ~7 years fractured tremendously about a month ago, and I haven’t had much of a life since. I crashed at my in-laws’ for three weeks and got into an apartment, but I’m just not okay. I’m in the process of getting hired on somewhere but the process has been slow, and I’m close to making the first expense I have coming up (prorated rent on the 1st), but I’m just not there and things just keep happening the way that they do when something goes wrong. My heart is broken, I’m exhausted, I’m stressed, and I’m scared as hell all the time. I don’t have a family; the situation I grew up in was cultlike and abusive, and I finally lost all ability to be in contact with them when I started transitioning.

Nothing I’ve written to try to describe how I feel, feels okay to publish. It’s lonely and unfair.

I’m going to be really grinding until I hit that first rent; any commissions you purchase in the next couple of days would really, really be helpful to me. I have open YCHes and adopts. I’m also offering 50usd fullbody loose paintings; I’ll post a separate ad but if that’s something you want let me know. I’ll also link my ko-fi.

https://ko-fi.com/A54661D

Thanks for your time.