I think probably my biggest weakness as a writer is that my stories are never really about anything. They're just me spinning out a scenario that sounds cool in my head, in a way that I can share with people. Even if I have some deeper meaning or allegory in mind, I get creatively distracted and it never really makes it onto the page.

Not that every story needs to be about something, but I offer very little substance to go with the style, and I think that's the reason why so few people get really invested in my fiction. I think that might be the reason why it bothers me so much that I get so little feedback, because maybe on some level I need other people to read the meaning into my stories that I fail to include.

And I don't have the first clue regarding how to do something about this. Even if I did, I worry that I've run out of opportunities to impress people, that I've already weighed myself down with too much mediocrity and even if I do turn out something legitimately good it'll be seen as a fluke.

You know the saying "not a has-been, but a never-was?" Well, right now I feel like I've managed to pull off both.