I've been pretty quiet on here, so I thought I'd give kind of a life update. This year has been...a lot.

I've been diagnosed with anxiety, depression, ADHD, & also am grappling with a health diagnosis of neurocardiogenic syncope, & how I am disabled. It's a lot to process, honestly.

I had never considered, nor wanted to consider, myself disabled, more out of an imposter syndrome thing & not wanting to exploit a community than anything else. But finally having a name to this life-altering condition I've had for half my life has given me a lot to think about.

It's frustrating when Google searches describe it as 'benign'. Yes I won't die from it, but I've had to change my entire life to function normally, & it impacts me every day. Put (very) simply: my blood pressure can randomly drop, causing me to faint/have 'seizures'. To me it's not 'benign'.

Having a name for what I have is great, but to learn there's no cure has been a struggle. I've gone to so many doctors to try and figure this out, having hope I could be free of this one day. Really sucks. I don't talk about it much online, but thought I'd at least say this.