I can't hold all this any longer as it seems to be endless. I want all this to end and it will end NOW! i am starting a new life, so i want everything to get better, for the others and me. Someone made me understand that i should do less things for others, say no, and donnt..put them above me, because it ruins my life, and my friendships. I guess i was just scared that if i wasn't making things, friends would leave me. It's worth the risk if i can feel more relaxed...Also my studies start this Tuesday, and they will tzke me away most if the day. I close commissions indefinitely, i need to focus on my studies, if i want to have a job later and because itns important...I apologize to all the friends i hurt, thinking about one especially...i am sorry if you hear me..