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Thoughts after my latest holiday (27/09)
a year ago
This is a skippable journal for majority, mostly me lamenting weight and just needing to write it down somewhere so yeah x3
(I also don't need comments, don't feel forced to leave something, I'm fine I promise :) )
Sooo - my weight is weird to me atm. On the one hand, I've had many friends/ one of which I've spent the night with love my roundness which gave me a huge body positive mood that has carried me for a number of months actually. Also having a mother who is on the heavier side, it's not like weight is taboo or I haven't seen the consequences of genetics/over eating at play....
But this holiday and the excessive walking I did around the mountain and Alton Towers just made me feel.....shit. Like over exerting myself before was like a one day recovery and badda bing badda boom i'm ok again soon. This is ow. This is fuck I feel terrible. What's more is at the themepark, some rides I had to be secure locked in just to keep me safe or they really had to push the safety handle down and something was still flagging as not right (this being on the air ride or Galatica one whatever it's called) - not to mention on the Runaway Minetrain, I had to switch seats with someone because the bar wouldn't go down.....so everyone saw. And yeah not a good feeling aha. No one looked at me funny or said anything, hell if I saw this happening it's like whatever. Who cares, just want to enjoy the day and ride.
So now that I'm home, still in pain and enjoying the last 3 days of my holiday before going back to work, I just feel like fuck time to start dieting again aha.
That was all really. I just need to get into the routine of something. Another group of friends wants to return to Alton Towers next year somepoint so its kinda like a timer just to either get more mobile or focus on being healthy again methinks.
Anyways have a nice day all, love yourself, be kind, be patient. Anyone that gives you shit are not worth your time and just take things one step at a time.
Thank you,
Nibs
(I also don't need comments, don't feel forced to leave something, I'm fine I promise :) )
Sooo - my weight is weird to me atm. On the one hand, I've had many friends/ one of which I've spent the night with love my roundness which gave me a huge body positive mood that has carried me for a number of months actually. Also having a mother who is on the heavier side, it's not like weight is taboo or I haven't seen the consequences of genetics/over eating at play....
But this holiday and the excessive walking I did around the mountain and Alton Towers just made me feel.....shit. Like over exerting myself before was like a one day recovery and badda bing badda boom i'm ok again soon. This is ow. This is fuck I feel terrible. What's more is at the themepark, some rides I had to be secure locked in just to keep me safe or they really had to push the safety handle down and something was still flagging as not right (this being on the air ride or Galatica one whatever it's called) - not to mention on the Runaway Minetrain, I had to switch seats with someone because the bar wouldn't go down.....so everyone saw. And yeah not a good feeling aha. No one looked at me funny or said anything, hell if I saw this happening it's like whatever. Who cares, just want to enjoy the day and ride.
So now that I'm home, still in pain and enjoying the last 3 days of my holiday before going back to work, I just feel like fuck time to start dieting again aha.
That was all really. I just need to get into the routine of something. Another group of friends wants to return to Alton Towers next year somepoint so its kinda like a timer just to either get more mobile or focus on being healthy again methinks.
Anyways have a nice day all, love yourself, be kind, be patient. Anyone that gives you shit are not worth your time and just take things one step at a time.
Thank you,
Nibs
