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About Dakimov RIP
16 years ago
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Well, after all the flood of concern abot the RIP journal of Dakimov, and the concern of many people, and like obviously he redirected all the attention to me, I will give some kind of "explanation" about it.
First, and I hope somebody can direct Dak here... so he realize he has a very nice fanbase and that there are people here that worries and cares about him, the comments and PMs I have recived talk about it, and it would be nice he notices it.
Well, and now, like most of you may know, Dak n I were papa n puppy for almost 3 years, we used to hang out in the web, share stuff and have fun as well as support each other in dificult moments... was really great have a good artist as a papa... and with time we tought about create a studio, and create publications for furs, and with some luck, help me to get a work visa for USA.... the studio was Dogstar and was a nice idea, that we both felt happy to make work.
At some point, Dak felt like he needed more to be a pro artist, and asked me help so we both could work as equals in DS, so he doesnt feel less of an artist or my shadow... so the project suffer a delay then, and we worked in make him a better artist, something that Im sure you guys noticed in his page, he become faster in draw, better inks and learned to work with digital color, things went well but work and stress delayed more and more the project, and I tought that maybe was better focus in to more relaxing acitvities, so the project had another delay, and a year and half passed...
5 months ago, my bro, and beloved friend Radarcub and I came out with the idea of make a page, BPS, where we could share stuff that he and I create, just for fun and to have a place to show what we can create, together, just random things based in stories and RPs we have done along the years... but, this friendly colab page between bear bros, became something painful for Dakimov, because for him, this page was a slap on the face so DS never worked, I decided find someone better to colab with. and also felt I broke the promises of him be the only one I would colab with... Well, last 5 months have been tense about it, and it finally end with the RIP journal of Dakimov.
BPS was just the end of many other situations and fights about me wanting try new stuff, meet new styles and do improves in what I create, as well as gifts and art that I share and give to people that has become important in my life... and the only way to fix stuff would be close BPS, and that could have solve stuff for a while... it could... but later--- what? what if I wanna draw a series of pics with a friend... what if I wanna make a gift for a beloved cub or friend? or ... what if I decide improve or change part of my style... does that mean that I dont love a person? I dont think so... love should go beyond art and projects... is care for the person, spend time with that person and share life. Is true I could have done all that with Radar and without BPS, but... what about next colab, gift or thing I wanna share with a diferent person? should I close thgat too? after years of projects that come and go... I felt glad that a projects could run fine, and not with a stranger I met at a con or something, but with somebody that I share important things and is family for me.
And well, after 5 months or argues and diferences...this all ends in the RIP journal of Dakimov... I really cant make an opinion about it, I did my best to prove my point, and he has his own ideas about it,,, and really makes me feel sad to know that I couldnt prove that I relaly continue caring for him, and was never the intention of BPS hurt him, ... things change, and people does too... but the love remains, thats a lesson I learned the hard way...
I know Im not perfect, I have lots of jealousy too, I have fears and I live some kind of loneliness that hurts a lot some days... that cuased me loose another good friend this weeks,,, but well, over all I try my best to care about those I love... after all thats what a family means, be there for them even when I have some other stuff to do, sometimes is not possible and people with a real life away form FA will undertsand that... love is what keep us together even with out faults... mine was hide stuff, dont talk with him about other things in my life, for fear to hurt him... and I accept my fault in that..
but I allways tried to make him undertsand that what really counts in a friendship or any other kind of relationship is other kind of deep feleings, and to be true I never have closed my heart to him, and well... wherever he is and if some of you guys, you can be sure he is a great guy, a great artist and a person that has a lot to offer... people that knows him knows well, and looking the comments of caring and concern about him, should show him he has a place in FA and the world fur.
With this end the journal, and by my side, wont be any other comment about this situation, ... right know I just know that love and relationships ,,, are complicated...
*bearwolf hugs*
First, and I hope somebody can direct Dak here... so he realize he has a very nice fanbase and that there are people here that worries and cares about him, the comments and PMs I have recived talk about it, and it would be nice he notices it.
Well, and now, like most of you may know, Dak n I were papa n puppy for almost 3 years, we used to hang out in the web, share stuff and have fun as well as support each other in dificult moments... was really great have a good artist as a papa... and with time we tought about create a studio, and create publications for furs, and with some luck, help me to get a work visa for USA.... the studio was Dogstar and was a nice idea, that we both felt happy to make work.
At some point, Dak felt like he needed more to be a pro artist, and asked me help so we both could work as equals in DS, so he doesnt feel less of an artist or my shadow... so the project suffer a delay then, and we worked in make him a better artist, something that Im sure you guys noticed in his page, he become faster in draw, better inks and learned to work with digital color, things went well but work and stress delayed more and more the project, and I tought that maybe was better focus in to more relaxing acitvities, so the project had another delay, and a year and half passed...
5 months ago, my bro, and beloved friend Radarcub and I came out with the idea of make a page, BPS, where we could share stuff that he and I create, just for fun and to have a place to show what we can create, together, just random things based in stories and RPs we have done along the years... but, this friendly colab page between bear bros, became something painful for Dakimov, because for him, this page was a slap on the face so DS never worked, I decided find someone better to colab with. and also felt I broke the promises of him be the only one I would colab with... Well, last 5 months have been tense about it, and it finally end with the RIP journal of Dakimov.
BPS was just the end of many other situations and fights about me wanting try new stuff, meet new styles and do improves in what I create, as well as gifts and art that I share and give to people that has become important in my life... and the only way to fix stuff would be close BPS, and that could have solve stuff for a while... it could... but later--- what? what if I wanna draw a series of pics with a friend... what if I wanna make a gift for a beloved cub or friend? or ... what if I decide improve or change part of my style... does that mean that I dont love a person? I dont think so... love should go beyond art and projects... is care for the person, spend time with that person and share life. Is true I could have done all that with Radar and without BPS, but... what about next colab, gift or thing I wanna share with a diferent person? should I close thgat too? after years of projects that come and go... I felt glad that a projects could run fine, and not with a stranger I met at a con or something, but with somebody that I share important things and is family for me.
And well, after 5 months or argues and diferences...this all ends in the RIP journal of Dakimov... I really cant make an opinion about it, I did my best to prove my point, and he has his own ideas about it,,, and really makes me feel sad to know that I couldnt prove that I relaly continue caring for him, and was never the intention of BPS hurt him, ... things change, and people does too... but the love remains, thats a lesson I learned the hard way...
I know Im not perfect, I have lots of jealousy too, I have fears and I live some kind of loneliness that hurts a lot some days... that cuased me loose another good friend this weeks,,, but well, over all I try my best to care about those I love... after all thats what a family means, be there for them even when I have some other stuff to do, sometimes is not possible and people with a real life away form FA will undertsand that... love is what keep us together even with out faults... mine was hide stuff, dont talk with him about other things in my life, for fear to hurt him... and I accept my fault in that..
but I allways tried to make him undertsand that what really counts in a friendship or any other kind of relationship is other kind of deep feleings, and to be true I never have closed my heart to him, and well... wherever he is and if some of you guys, you can be sure he is a great guy, a great artist and a person that has a lot to offer... people that knows him knows well, and looking the comments of caring and concern about him, should show him he has a place in FA and the world fur.
With this end the journal, and by my side, wont be any other comment about this situation, ... right know I just know that love and relationships ,,, are complicated...
*bearwolf hugs*
bueno....ojala y se solucione todo en ambas partes *hugs* en efecto, las relaciones, internet y reales, pueden ser muy complicadas <_<
It´s hard to find words to figure what i want to say here... what would i give to help you now, cauz i think, i know a little about what you feel now, how much it hurts to loose someone you love, maybe you loved for years.
How long it takes to realize that it´s over and want it back, want him back. I tryed to hate somebody, now i just try to don´t remind him, and it´s hard.
Hope it helps you a little, we feel with you.
oh, okay, so he left...and i was goign to do a picture for m
sigh...oh well, i hope you get better soon, christmas doesn nto need this now
i hope u still managed a happy xmas and new year
<bows in excuses>
You are loved by your friends here. It doesn't need to be complicated, especially when it can be worked through. It really sounds like Dak went a bit too far, but I understand that I shouldn't be so judgmental, either.
Anyways, the best thing I can do now is love you for you and hold you in my arms. *hugs you close*
Don't ever give up on love, bear, even if it seems complicated....just give yourself time in this dark period, and feel love warm you again soon. :)