I'm more or less expressing my thoughts and feelings here and not exactly asking for advice, however I'm going to hear other people's thoughts if somebody has something to say.
So I've been feeling well enough to take on commissions and I'm very excited for it, though there are things that are pushing me back and stressing me out. Unlike spontaneous YCH batches, I inform on the time and date when I open commissions, the drawback that was missing from YCHs is overpresent in commissions. I know that the moment they're open, within first minutes all slots will be taken up leaving little to no room for newcomers to have a chance. That's stressing me out a lot, I get upset and it hogs my mind.
I know that one of the solutions is form based commission application and then me selecting out the few ones. I don't like that, I'd miss out on the randomness element and would incite me to stay within a comfort zone, also would incite commissioners to pander to my comfort in order to increase their chances. It would absolutely make me feel even worse than the previous issue. I know that other solution is filtering people out by increasing the price, but that's a no go. At least not yet. Limiting people's chances by how much they can afford instead of timing doesn't fix the issue, also the fear of it having the opposite effect instead.
Anyway, these are just my thoughts on the subject and I know there's no solution to this and that's fine, I just roll with what I can. Human limits are just that.