Slowing Down almost stopping
10 months ago
So, I've been very slow with my art/commissions lately and I wanted to give some clarification for anyone who cares.
I kept it private but I been struggling with suicidal thoughts in the last months (wow how original a suicidal trans girl!) and they were reaching a critical point, I had to seek help and I did, thanks to public healthcare system now I'm receiving treatment with light anti depressants.
The suicidal thoughts are gone and I'm feeling much better...however, the antidepressants make me sleepy and energy drained, I'm sleeping 12 hours a day and only being really wake after drinking at least 3 cups of strong coffe...as consequence my art productivity decreased significantly, I used to draw everyday now I'm drawing each 3 days more or less, this is very frustrating,but it's the price to pay to keep living I guess.
To mitigate my lack of motivation for commissions I'm planning to start streaming the drawing process on my server (if you dont know about my server: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/57614423/ ) I still thinking about the best time of the day to stream and stuff, It may take some time.
I kept it private but I been struggling with suicidal thoughts in the last months (wow how original a suicidal trans girl!) and they were reaching a critical point, I had to seek help and I did, thanks to public healthcare system now I'm receiving treatment with light anti depressants.
The suicidal thoughts are gone and I'm feeling much better...however, the antidepressants make me sleepy and energy drained, I'm sleeping 12 hours a day and only being really wake after drinking at least 3 cups of strong coffe...as consequence my art productivity decreased significantly, I used to draw everyday now I'm drawing each 3 days more or less, this is very frustrating,but it's the price to pay to keep living I guess.
To mitigate my lack of motivation for commissions I'm planning to start streaming the drawing process on my server (if you dont know about my server: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/57614423/ ) I still thinking about the best time of the day to stream and stuff, It may take some time.
It's VERY GOOD to read you have looked for help and get some immediately!
Depression is an extremely hard thing and i've made some experiences by myself with this scourge.
Do not worry about your output of new art! The absolute most important thing is your wellfeeling! Take your time and take care of the health of all three bases: Body, Mind and Soul!
And last thing i want to say:
MY VERY DEEP RESPECT!!!
I know living with depression is an unbelievable everyday-fighting, and i admire every brave soul who fight against this numbing power.
Stay tough, stay strong and never give up!
Hope you start feeling better :)