in a nutshell, let's say i'm trying to forget about some guys i knew for a long time only to find they've left knives in my back or tell me i should do this or that when said guys haven't done it themselves. i've only got one really good RP partner, but he wants to take a break and understandably feels like some twisted relationship. but the problem is that after everything that's happened to me on Discord servers and with guys i thought were my friends, i've realized i can't trust anyone anymore as much as i'd like to. like i've said a million times, anything i say or do won't make a lick of difference. so i'm stuck yet again. i don't know what more i can possibly do, and i'm at a point where anyone i ask for an RP will either let me down with one short, lazy post after another or turn me down because of differing RP preferences or just disappear on me.

that's why i posted in an older account about how tempted i was to quit FA. well i closed my old account without saying anything because i've tried to move on and forget about those whose words and actions further strengthened my resolve. i really wish i had new, reliable RP partners besides one guy i have known on Discord for not very long. but i have been very doubtful i'll ever find any more, since either others are too lazy or just don't understand or respect my RP preferences.

so yeah. i'm still here to admire big anthro girls, but i don't know who to turn to or where to look for RPing anymore.