thanks to you guys generosity i have enough on hand to book the flight.
i'm still waiting to hear back on what days i need to fly out and i don't plan on taking my laptop with me, as there is no viable working desk/chair and i'm anticipating being swarmed by family members i havent seen in a decade

i'm doing a little better today than i was yesterday. i started drinking on an empty stomach and started listening to all his favorite music and i just could not stop crying or get it together. i didn't eat all saturday and naturally i feel like ass today.

i've been trying to get my apartment cleaned for about a month now but i kept getting behind on work or dealing with minor health issues / stress that inhibited that, and its frustrating to know that im gonna be even further behind. im very exhausted from starting/finishing 17 comms in 7 days and im expecting to be pretty slow getting back on track, and i'm sorry for that in advance

thats all the news i have for right now, ill give more concrete stuff later once i know