Last journal wasn't good or particularly well handled by me, but I think it deserves to be said it took two full weeks to finally feel an interest for drawing again proper. I still don't feel great, I still have to probably end my business for a while, and I'm still not doing great health wise (no surprise there).

I have a Mastodon Thread going into my health a little, but the quick version is that I am fighting to keep myself doing creative things and existing in general. Much of the problem stems from disorders that are not quite Narcolepsy linked alone, it still looks like I'm just teetering shy of Parkinson's, a particular quirk with my sleep problems also has been identified as an early predictor of Parkinson's, as well as Dementia caused by Lewy Bodies, which basically is when pockets in your grey matter start to form.

I've had continued degradation of my day to day life abilities despite living with  Zoop , it's been hard to keep myself focused on anything in the first place since I get very rare opportunities to make things. Much of the problem stems from my brain state wobbling at the slightest disruption, and that kinda kills me because boy I wanna do things. I just, y'know, can't.

Recent news still is chilling my desire to make stuff, and I do really mean it when I say I am very fucking concerned about the direction the U.S. is headed.

Thanks for the kind words that people gave me. Use my linktree to get to my other places, right now I'm posting most on Bluesky and Mastodon, you can email me or send me a note here if you'd like to access my Discord server.