Do what brings you joy ♥

It's perfectly okay to feel this way. Do whatever you feel is best for you!

I find that when people ask me about the next page of a comic that I've paused it triggers a bunch of guilt and shame that then punts the idea further into the grass. Ctn almost became impossible to pick up again because people kept asking eagerly why the comic had stopped or when it would be back and I kept saying soon, soon, soon...all the while internally panicking because the more folk asked me the less I wanted to touch the comic again.
So I get that pressure can really sap energy for something that there was joy for.
And whether you do or don't pick up your projects again I hope you find that creative and joy still in you

... YES THIS IS IT

I get people are excited and that means the world to me but being kept asking about it after already saying its on hiatus is really damping my spark. Its also making it really hard to start new projects fearing the same disappointment.

Thanks Star, I really needed to hear this and it at least bittersweet knowing someone else understand how this feels.

I genuinely remember a very specific day where I was like...okay..im gonna finally do a CTN page today...opened up FA read a new comment on a shine page going "Gee i really miss CTN when is it coming back its been months now" and was instantly like "Well...cant do CTN now." even tho two seconds before that I had all the energy to do it. I think the original version of found there was like a year long gap for the same reason.

Its weird how our brains are wired, I havent really dug in my head about what happens exactly there, but perhaps its worth reflecting on.

What is it about other peoples wants or hopes or expectations of me that then drains me. Is it the fear of letting folk down? the worry that if I do pick the project up again people will think the next update just wasnt worth waiting for? Is it better to not pick it up ever again cause at least people know where everything stands so I cant make it worse...

No one is deliberately making me feel shame or guilt, thats all on me, its all my own personal stuff no one has ever said "You should feel guilty or shamefull that you havent done this thing" But thats exactly how I feel when it happens.

Its interesting to explore really. I'm always happy to chat privately if you wanna bounce some stuff around. Dms and telegram are always available (@sqynx)

Its your art, there is no requirement to draw art