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11 months ago
❤❤ ~ Remember that you are loved! ~ ❤❤ Been drawing a ton of comfort art for myself lately
[sorry to those waiting on stuff, i haven't forgotten, and if you are worried i have just send me a message on discord/telegram...]
because my health has been nosediving to hell and back. I'm currently only getting ~6 days between periods right now and I have Endometriosis, PMDD, PCOS & Pelvic congestion syndrome. Like all the worst shits right there in one localized spot.
Its made me bloated and irritable and just downright miserable. I've been laying in bed bored out of my mind more than I've been at my desk this month.
I've had to pull back from talking most places because the PMDD just makes me unnaturally aggressive and I don't want to say anything I don't mean when my hormones are trying to start fights for the kicks. Already fucked up too many friendships from that shit...
I have decided that I will be scheduling a Total Hysterectomy soon as I know I'll have a person around to take care of me as the Birth control pills that i've developed immunity to was the last option I had before Surgery was the choice to look at.
And while I was looking at Endometrial ablation I think it would just be easier to kick that whole shit to the curb once and for all, I'm already neutered anyways. lmao.
Also the disability struggle continues with great agony, almost to the 2 years waitin' for it point now just a couple more months.
The assessments went ass lmao. The mental assessment went okay i guess but I flubbed so much and it was so embarrassing.
The physical assessment was just a hour of being gaslit by a 70-80y/o man, might risk my whole ass chance of not having to take this to disability court or w/e with how nasty he was.
Said that because I wasn't on Opioids I 'wasn't taking care of myself and wasn't deserving of disability' despite being very obvious that they made me heal off TYLENOL for a Knee reconstruction where they had to surgically break a bone.
As if they'd EVER give it to me because 'oof i can't describe what my pain is like but its bad'???? Just makes me upset and mad.
Opioids made me dumb as a fuckin brick wall, they are the reason Weremeep exists with all her droolyness. And my aunt has mad harm done to her body from taking them long-term and she's like 30 years older than me.
There's more happenin' around here but not stuff I feel safe admittin' willy nilly at this time. I'm just... tryin to stay afloat.
Needing a lot of comfort from my art, just isn't vent art. I'm copin with the struggle of it all by drowning myself in my characters, their lore and backstories and just... tryin to make the best of a bad hand.
Its not that I'm purposefully avoiding anyone or anything I'm just a downright mess.
I will be ok.
I will get through this.
I'm just tired of life constantly slappin me when it feels like i'm gettin somewhere haha.
And no i don't wanna talk more about whats happening atm. Thank you for all the kind offers but I'm gonna be ok. I've gotten through much worse than this.
I do on the other hand want to talk about my ocs.
they have been a godsend lately, so if you have any questions about them, I'd love to nerd if you'd let me haha.
https://toyhou.se/Meep/characters
VEN_vengeance
~venvengeance
I wish you the best on your journey and don't worry about it. we are all here rooting for you. ❤
Adriborte
~adriborte
my mother had to get a hysterectomy. Get ice packs aplenty ready.
SacriPan
~sacripan
If you need to talk, I'm here (even if we don't know much about each other)
