Ha ha vent post.

In short, fellow Millennials, we were given the crud end of the stick, haven't we?

I'm currently feeling stuck in a gigantic pit that I can't pull out of. I'm in my late 20s, still living at home, still single, stuck in California. My current living situation is less than ideal. I basically have a single bedroom to call my living space, and the folks I house with, mainly my mother, are difficult to live with. She has BPD and takes her negativity out on me regularly. It's a mental disaster for me being on the Autism spectrum.

I've developed some severe anxiety during my mid teens and am still taking medication to control it. These mix of disabilities unfortunately make me fragile to overstimulation, and when that happens all I can do is shut down and block everything out. I currently work a part time minimum wage job, which I'm proud to say I've been excelling at for the past five years. Remarkably, I feel more at ease at my job than I do at home. The downside is, due to risking overstimulation, I'm not able to work full time :/

With my current income, I can't even rent as much as a studio apartment without significant financial support. Moving to another state is an option I've looked into, but even so, the housing market has skyrocketed so high that it's near impossible for a single person to live without having near two full time jobs.

I feel stuck, and my mental health is degrading the more I spend time in this toxic environment. I just want to get out and actually start living my life instead of just "surviving."

Thoughts keep recurring where I want to just drop everything and move. But I fear that I'd exhaust any savings I've accumulated through the past years just to survive on rent and food alone, and potentially be homeless once that's all gone :<

I honestly feel like life is passing me by and I'm not able to do anything about it.