I'm putting this journal here from my LJ cause I don't give a shit if someone wants to be a fucking troll and hate on me. I'm making this known cause I know others won't be able to read it about my life much after this. BTW if you say one thing wrong, you are blocked!!

I should be happy that the holiday's are almost here. Somehow I feel like everything once again for the 2nd time in a row I have lost my job before christmas, is just gonna be an every year deal for me. I mean I had to sacrifice everything last year. Didn't go see my family, had no money for presents, no gas for our vehicle, hell this year we have no vehicle any more.

I mean honestly I don't cause these problems to happen. I can't just for one FUCKING year just be happy?

I have my friends and thats what matters. We always have them nearby for us if need be but also cause our door is always open for them to come visit and hang out.

Frost has been busy making a fun little monopoly board that we are trying to make interactive for the fur fandom. We calls it Furopoly. Its coming along really great. We've finished the board and now we are in the card stages for like the community chest, Which we have dubbed Con Ops, cause well ya never know what they will do to ya :P and Chance stays the same. We also need to make 8 token pieces but was thinking of maybe certain fursuits or fursuit pieces. If ya wanna see it you'll have to go to Frost's LJ section and friend him to see it.

http://frostcat.livejournal.com/190509.html

Also as he has said, we much respect the furcons used on the board as well as the art of the respective owners. I'm sure they will also love this. Once its done we will show them first to see what they think. So as frost said also, "Don't fucking start something and bitch and claim we are art thieves. We are nothing like that. Don't be jelous that we can come up with something fun for everyone and you can't.

Anyway some good things about friends does help us. Like having  kenovawolf visit us on the weekends when he's not working is very nice. He came over and we played Left 4 Dead 2 and I think I got him hooked on it. I also introduced him to a naughty foxy pet of mine and I think I started something that will end with gooey results :P heh Even seeing  morinw goofy face round here is always a treat.

It does make me happy now and then to see friends. Hell I went out of my way a week ago to take Falcon's kids out sledding at the park down the block. I even tried out the snowboards I had but the straps on them broke. Thats what I get for getting them from the garbage. But the good thing is the straps can be fixed and have new ones on them. Just need to figure out where to get them. Socks if yer ever in the area do come visit and see what ya can do to help me learn to ride one of these things.

The weather has been an off and on experience like crazy with decent temperatures rising and lowering. I mean a steady 30 degree weather is good but not freezing.

I am glad that frost is filling out apps along with me so we don't really lose our place. It is funny though that with all the places that say help wanted, they certainly don't show it when they arn't busy.

I don't really know how we're gonna be able to deal with rent till we have a good job. I don't know what Cooper is even doing any more in finding a job. He is getting unemployment from his six flags job but its not enough. We don't exactally have the luxuries he has, but we let him do as he wants.

Next week I'm gonna be visited by  dmk and  kalkaph for new years. We're staying home cause with how everything has been, I wouldn't of been able to host fur years eve this year. I hope they have a good time out here at least.

Me and Frost have a few solutions that might work, but we're not holding our breath. We try and tough it out best we can and keep trying to find something. We look for better jobs further north (granted I would be sacrificing everything like my meet and also my friends). We start making our own porn vids and see who would pay to watch them (granted friends we wouldn't charge anything). Or we ask for money from friends.

Now that last one isn't gonna happen cause I will NOT accept money again like last year. Call me stubborn if you wish but I'm trying to learn from my mistakes and I just can't do that again and ask for money from my friends and not be able to repay them. I mean part of me cries to know I have such wonderful people looking out for us, but the other half cries to know he can't do the same for them when it ever happens. I mean if ya wanna send it thats fine but I just don't know what I can do in return.

I'm happy to have frost, my friends, my pet ratty Cassie and my family lookin out for me and helping me best they can. I just hope the rest of this month ends on a good note rather than a bad one.

Take care all and wish me luck.