like the reality of my ramblings and all is i just gotta bite the bullet and do some commentary videos even though the idea of sitting and talking at the camera bores me to no end and i want to show it something interesting instead. the flip side is i have remembered that B-roll footage exists so perhaps we can make something happen after all, and just get into the habit of rolling tape more often.

the question is though, do i make an homage to the legendary disappointment of a video, 2010's "that time i talked about drawings i did from a decade earlier for a school project while a gif of a bird from Sim Park flew around in the corner for 13 minutes" which of course is very funny now but at the time it was horrible and boring and honestly i was so ashamed of it i thought i should give up filmmaking forever. i didn't, of course, and here i am. but i think it would be a very powerful move for me to do an homage to that video to say "hey doofus look i did that again but now because i didn't give up like some weenie hut jrs regular i did something kinda cool"

For whatever its worth, i do wonder if there's anything worthwhile to do in the future what it is. i'm just, so bored!

ugh idk i'm going to bed.