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Bit of a life update Kinda important
10 months ago
I'm not usually the type to hang out my laundry but it has been impacting my life and art vastly too much to stay totally clammed up
This has been a kinda long time coming. So I've been very. Very. Absent this last like 6 months. Which is very obvious but Im here to shed some lights on it all
Long story short. Lots of loss and near loss.
About 6 months ago a break up. I do not want to go into depth on it but it all fucked me up in numerous ways I can't even want to explain. A whole half a decade thing gone completely in an instant and I'm still not really recovered fully. It however brought up a plethora of trauma and trauma responses *as well as being traumatic in it's own right* I don't want any animosity in this whole thing mind you. Frankly i wont tolerate it.
However that was just the start of things.
I also lost a dog. My lizard and the snek all within about a month.
My great uncle died.
My mother nearly died.
Someone I care deeply about kidneys are failing.
My grandma is literally talking about how she's just waiting to die. I never thought I would relate to my grandmother on the topic of depression, but here we are.
And My sisters health isnt great, to say the very very least
For about a month I lost ALL of my pillars basically which did not have a good reaction at all in my little basket cased brain.
Then *seasonal depression*
Ive been more active in my server but not by very much but still more active there, but I thank you all greatly for your patience with me and my depressed struggling ass
Discord server: https://discord.gg/cult-of-the-endless-tail
This has been a kinda long time coming. So I've been very. Very. Absent this last like 6 months. Which is very obvious but Im here to shed some lights on it all
Long story short. Lots of loss and near loss.
About 6 months ago a break up. I do not want to go into depth on it but it all fucked me up in numerous ways I can't even want to explain. A whole half a decade thing gone completely in an instant and I'm still not really recovered fully. It however brought up a plethora of trauma and trauma responses *as well as being traumatic in it's own right* I don't want any animosity in this whole thing mind you. Frankly i wont tolerate it.
However that was just the start of things.
I also lost a dog. My lizard and the snek all within about a month.
My great uncle died.
My mother nearly died.
Someone I care deeply about kidneys are failing.
My grandma is literally talking about how she's just waiting to die. I never thought I would relate to my grandmother on the topic of depression, but here we are.
And My sisters health isnt great, to say the very very least
For about a month I lost ALL of my pillars basically which did not have a good reaction at all in my little basket cased brain.
Then *seasonal depression*
Ive been more active in my server but not by very much but still more active there, but I thank you all greatly for your patience with me and my depressed struggling ass
Discord server: https://discord.gg/cult-of-the-endless-tail
5 of my family cats also passed away, stay strong...if youre still chosen to be alive it means someone else outside there may be destined to meet you and your contribution will be greatly important/significantly needed for the greater good in the coming time...
I thank you for you kind and encouraging words. I hope this new year brings better times for both of us.
Breaking up is a hard thing to do. After such a long relationship, I can imagine you'd feel shut out from love. But, it is still there for you. Your friends love you, your chosen family! You're continuing to give love to those you support and care about, as well. Remember that that love is right around the corner for you, too.
I hope things improve for everyone in your life and yourself very soon!