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Thank you guys for the awesome year!!
9 months ago
----This Journal, while posted on FA, is directed at everyone who has supported my art, or me personally!----
Heya all, I'm taking some time off from my break to write this Journal, both as a follow-up to my previous entries about a "big project", and as a thank-you and send-off to the year. I hope you'll read it all the way through!
-First, I want to address my project: I will not be finishing it. I am sorry, but between a mix of college burnout, family vacation, and the project itself being a complicated thing to continue for a reason I'll get to soon, I decided it's best for my health to stop it entirely, since I wanted it done by October, and was willing to push it to December, but the motivation is all gone. Now that I've said that, I can pull back the curtains and tell you exactly what it was supposed to be: A 5-page comic based on Ghosts and Japes (vore game that was trending during the spooky season, but I still play it cause it's genuinely good). It was intended to be a symbolic piece because at the end of it I was supposed to be willingly digested, implied to be a fatal end, only for me to reform happily as a ghost, saying I'll return to my body whenever I'm ready. It was supposed to be my way of.. graduating, from a person who just draws to a novice-but certified artist.
However!!! my philosophy about art has since changed! Both with my growth in self-confidence, and my interactions with other artists and their work. I now strongly believe that anyone can be an artist if they so deem themself such and create art, as art is the expression of a person's soul. To gatekeep myself from that right because of a lack of technical skill, is to deny myself my own creativity, blocking myself from free expression and instead seeking empty talent, which I don't want. I wanna draw because it's fun, and I love using it as a way to express my interests and such as someone who sucks doing that verbally. As such, if I do continue that project, it'll be for a love of the game itself instead of using it to further a detrimental ideal.
Sorry to everyone for keeping you waiting so long for nothing!
Well, not exactly nothing, I still got some art for ya..~
-Next, with the sobby apologetic stuff out of the way, time for the thank yous and send off!!
It's been a super long year, even if I just joined this site at the start of it, I've been drawing for several- started in 2021 actually! And yet, this year feels like the biggest it's been yet for me as an artist! With my self confidence getting better, and with me being able to actually see a steady improvement from the start of the year compared to the end of it instead of it just being stagnant, and it feels great!! I finally feel like an artist, and I've got all you people to thank for it! Everyone from close friends to just about anybody who supported my art, you're all the absolute best, and I thank each and every one of you for helping me send off the year with a smile!! This is honestly the best I've felt in years, I've struggled with self-worth my whole life, and I finally feel that changing as I take on a stronger sense of self!
I will be posting an artpiece I made as thanks after this goes up, as a replacement to that comic. Instead of a graduatory piece wrought from a need to prove himself, It'll instead be one of gratitude, thanking you all for making me realize what I always had: a creative mind with lots to share <3
Thank you all, Merry Christmas, And happy New Year!!
Heya all, I'm taking some time off from my break to write this Journal, both as a follow-up to my previous entries about a "big project", and as a thank-you and send-off to the year. I hope you'll read it all the way through!
-First, I want to address my project: I will not be finishing it. I am sorry, but between a mix of college burnout, family vacation, and the project itself being a complicated thing to continue for a reason I'll get to soon, I decided it's best for my health to stop it entirely, since I wanted it done by October, and was willing to push it to December, but the motivation is all gone. Now that I've said that, I can pull back the curtains and tell you exactly what it was supposed to be: A 5-page comic based on Ghosts and Japes (vore game that was trending during the spooky season, but I still play it cause it's genuinely good). It was intended to be a symbolic piece because at the end of it I was supposed to be willingly digested, implied to be a fatal end, only for me to reform happily as a ghost, saying I'll return to my body whenever I'm ready. It was supposed to be my way of.. graduating, from a person who just draws to a novice-but certified artist.
However!!! my philosophy about art has since changed! Both with my growth in self-confidence, and my interactions with other artists and their work. I now strongly believe that anyone can be an artist if they so deem themself such and create art, as art is the expression of a person's soul. To gatekeep myself from that right because of a lack of technical skill, is to deny myself my own creativity, blocking myself from free expression and instead seeking empty talent, which I don't want. I wanna draw because it's fun, and I love using it as a way to express my interests and such as someone who sucks doing that verbally. As such, if I do continue that project, it'll be for a love of the game itself instead of using it to further a detrimental ideal.
Sorry to everyone for keeping you waiting so long for nothing!
Well, not exactly nothing, I still got some art for ya..~
-Next, with the sobby apologetic stuff out of the way, time for the thank yous and send off!!
It's been a super long year, even if I just joined this site at the start of it, I've been drawing for several- started in 2021 actually! And yet, this year feels like the biggest it's been yet for me as an artist! With my self confidence getting better, and with me being able to actually see a steady improvement from the start of the year compared to the end of it instead of it just being stagnant, and it feels great!! I finally feel like an artist, and I've got all you people to thank for it! Everyone from close friends to just about anybody who supported my art, you're all the absolute best, and I thank each and every one of you for helping me send off the year with a smile!! This is honestly the best I've felt in years, I've struggled with self-worth my whole life, and I finally feel that changing as I take on a stronger sense of self!
I will be posting an artpiece I made as thanks after this goes up, as a replacement to that comic. Instead of a graduatory piece wrought from a need to prove himself, It'll instead be one of gratitude, thanking you all for making me realize what I always had: a creative mind with lots to share <3
Thank you all, Merry Christmas, And happy New Year!!
Also congratulations on having the will to drop that project…! Your mental health comes first, after all though ^w^
I'm sure I'll get a spark for a new, better project eventually!