I came here on this platform in 2021 C.E. half expecting to see if I can find some friends to interact with. I've always been socially awkward and never did well in real-life conversations. By the time I saw these cool artists doing great things with their commissions and work, I desired that. But I didn't know where to start.

I HATED the way I draw, and I still do. No matter how hard I keep trying, I always end up either playing some video games to waste away my life which never meant anything, or I get caught up in interacting with what few friends I had, so my drawing never improves. I've always been gamer first, artist last, and always a social outcast, and it's gotten to the point where I felt life no longer has any meaning to me, and maybe it was time I listened to Azathoth's words and just put an end to my misery. I'm still technically new in this platform, so I guess no one here could care that I mattered to the furry community, the one community I felt home in.


I don't know if I matter in life anymore.