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before we start, I would like to extend a heartfelt thank you to  DariusLeoGator and  fir3dragon0113 For sticking with me like glue during a dark moment, when I was at my lowest, questioning my talents as an artist, you two were there to tell me not give up.

So....

After some time today, as of writing this, I have given it some though, and came to my final decision, I am choosing to stay, as Darius put it, Im not taking a large chunk of my personality away from me because, some therapist told me that my entire persona was built off a trauma response from years of abuse. as he said, I need to fight those pieces of trauma because its what makes me, I'd just be nothing without my flaws, my chinks in my armour as one could put it. I would also be alienating myself since alot of my close friends are furries themselves and I would just be the odd one out from the rest.

So to say Fuck right off to that idea is an understatement, because Im hear and shouting at the top of my lungs to say Things will only get better from here. Its not right to just remove something so big to me, when I've built up this empire of art I've made, only to dump it to the side, dust my hands clean and pretend anything happened, and as seen from my friend ren. There are some people out there who generally enjoy seeing my art and want to see more of it made.

So here's to kicking Seasonal depression in the ass, cause Fuck it seven ways from Sunday. Even though I get down in the dumps and question myself, I just want to thank those who helped rebuild me when even I couldn't rebuild myself

Here's to 2025, the year of my self improvement and art

Even though I may seem down at times, and it looks like shit hit the fan, its takes a lot to drop me, and even more for me to stay down

Alexander