Well, I've been hit with the news. I'll keep it short, but my mom is screwing up the family's money.

Thing is, it's hard to take care of my own gains because I've never been properly taught how to manage my money, and I've occasionally relied to buy my own dinner several times due to my dad's scrooge behavior. Those two are co-dependent polar opposites: He's a huge scrooge who thinks living just above the survival line is enough, hence the entire lawn is overgrown and the water filter tastes weird. She is a waster, spending cash thoughtlessly, and is currently on a dispute to sap as much cash from him as possible. Even divorced they still fight like a couple of ghouls. She wants me to live away from him, but her apartment has no doors and I refuse to share a roof with that witch. Yet she refuses to help me when I say I need a place of my own, and she's suddenly absent whenever I need my medical needs like the dentist, even though she says she wants to help and loves me.

I feel useless. I don't know what to do and I think I'll have to go back to being a NEET, because she has yet to pay for my college tuition. Those two crippled my life as much as they could due to some non-existential love they never had for me, born from that damned ayahuasca piss.

I'm hanging in there, I'm trying not to despair, but I'm exhausted.