I’m reposting a vent thread I did over there on here. I hope the person I’m referring to can see this. Everything I say is genuine.

Why did I bother messaging someone who has me blocked on every other site besides fucking artfight, they clearly don’t want me to ever interact with em. Guess I’ll wait till july to see if they responded to the message I sent em on goddamn artfight

But I miss them. Deep down I do. They were one of the first friends I made in this community. And I want to rekindle our friendship, and hopefully not blow it this time like I did four years ago. I just want them to read it. They said I could message em whenever.

I suppose it’s just what I deserve for treating them the way I did. Ghosting them if they annoyed me, yelling at them if I got angry, and constantly going woe is me if I did anything wrong. I wish we could’ve met today. I really really wish we didn’t meet when we were sixteen. Fuck man.

And they were right. Right about everything. And I couldn’t handle that. God I was such a fucking arrogant moron. If I had the chance to talk with them today maybe just maybe we could have something good again. But probably not. They don’t want me around. And I just don’t know how to accept that

I’m just missing them man. I want things to be better between us. I want to be better. I want to be better for them. It’s the least I can do.