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How do you distract yourself? (Input request)
7 months ago
Good evening all,
Just wondering how you guys keep yourselves distracted? Over the past couple of days, I've had the urge to go back to the bottle on more than one occasion. It's not just when I get stressed. It also seems to happen when I have nothing going on as well. Like I'll be chilling in my recliner playing Cult of the Lamb, and it'll just come across my mind like "You know what would make this better/help you relax more? Alcohol. You don't have to tell anyone."
It doesn't help that I still have it in the house, and we aren't getting rid of it because we offer it to friends when they come over. Not to mention my wife has not so much given up on trying to help, but when I talk to her about it lately, she says "If you want to drink, just go ahead. Nobody's stopping you. I have my fair share of escapism too."
It doesn't help, and I feel like I can't talk to her about this because of those comments. Nothing against her, like I get it she's trying to relate, but I don't know how to feel when comments like those are made. I'm probably overreacting which is fine, because I'm already aware my mental health is about as stable as a wall made with wet sand and gravel. If it's left alone, it's fine, but if not it's really not and that's where alcohol seems to be the bandages and the reinforcements to said wall for a short time. Either way, I love her for her and even if she's blatantly honest, it's something I can look past.
Sorry for the rambling, back to my question at hand. How do you escape? How do you distract yourself from the urge to go back to something you know is toxic but gives temporary relief? Even when around friends and no one's drinking at all, I still feel the urge to go throw one back real quick to calm my mind. Any help or input would be appreciated. Sorry for the pity party. I have no other outlets right now.
On a side tangent, the song Pity Party by lovelytheband. When I hear the chorus, I think of being invited to a birthday party full of pitbulls that have little party hats on. Stupid, I know. I just wanted that to be out there as a positive spin on a not-so-positive journal.
With love from this side of the dirt,
AnthemTheMalamutt
Just wondering how you guys keep yourselves distracted? Over the past couple of days, I've had the urge to go back to the bottle on more than one occasion. It's not just when I get stressed. It also seems to happen when I have nothing going on as well. Like I'll be chilling in my recliner playing Cult of the Lamb, and it'll just come across my mind like "You know what would make this better/help you relax more? Alcohol. You don't have to tell anyone."
It doesn't help that I still have it in the house, and we aren't getting rid of it because we offer it to friends when they come over. Not to mention my wife has not so much given up on trying to help, but when I talk to her about it lately, she says "If you want to drink, just go ahead. Nobody's stopping you. I have my fair share of escapism too."
It doesn't help, and I feel like I can't talk to her about this because of those comments. Nothing against her, like I get it she's trying to relate, but I don't know how to feel when comments like those are made. I'm probably overreacting which is fine, because I'm already aware my mental health is about as stable as a wall made with wet sand and gravel. If it's left alone, it's fine, but if not it's really not and that's where alcohol seems to be the bandages and the reinforcements to said wall for a short time. Either way, I love her for her and even if she's blatantly honest, it's something I can look past.
Sorry for the rambling, back to my question at hand. How do you escape? How do you distract yourself from the urge to go back to something you know is toxic but gives temporary relief? Even when around friends and no one's drinking at all, I still feel the urge to go throw one back real quick to calm my mind. Any help or input would be appreciated. Sorry for the pity party. I have no other outlets right now.
On a side tangent, the song Pity Party by lovelytheband. When I hear the chorus, I think of being invited to a birthday party full of pitbulls that have little party hats on. Stupid, I know. I just wanted that to be out there as a positive spin on a not-so-positive journal.
With love from this side of the dirt,
AnthemTheMalamutt