Okay, well, so far I'm still here. I took a few days off to try to catch up a little and while I think it helped, I am still working on getting to a place where I can feel good about things. I've been not writing while the bedroom was torn apart and now that it's back together I am trying to get my discipline and focus up to a good level.

On the downside I found some parts of the project I was working on were just gone, despite the fact that I'd saved and remembered doing more work on those chapters. The files weren't missing, they were there, just stopped at an earlier point for reasons I'm unable to determine, but in some cases I was planning on editing anyway.

There's just so much to do and a lot of the times when I read folks stuff I feel very inadequate. Now I know that's probably imposter syndrome and there's also the point that it is a finished polished work versus a WIP, but I want to release more stuff. I want to get more written, and I want to do it without stressing myself out. Finding balance has been tricky.... I let FA get a bit out of hand while trying to focus, it's one more thing for me to deal with, but I'm trying bit by bit to get caught up and find a way to stay there.

I think I may try to do a pride month story for VOD. What I would like for a minimum goal is to finish one large project and 6 small ones a year, if I can do that I'll be happy. More would be better, but one step at a time.

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