I recently had the worst mental breakdown as my body and mind gain immune to meds and touching grass then the Ram smash my head so bad that i feel like i'm about have seizer.
Chat to my therapist and they me this advice to help overcome about my past guilt, criticism and abuse: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NICI7yKp7cw

It's sucks when i'm honest because i have to accept my flaws that been dagging me across the mud like criminal record. I hate lying as it's impossible to pull it off but sometime i rarely do, only in Gruffalo style of how mouse survive danger by tricking predators by lying to escape predation. (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q52r23uan6A) I'm ain't saying what lie i posted online because it's top secret for safety reason.

Up to date and outdated ideology, philosophy, belief and morality as clashs in conflict. I desire and fighting to reject the outdated material as it's harmful, cringe and destructive. Trying to replace with chad of up to date version that mature, kind and wholesome but still cause risk as it's rebelous to dominat outdated that there some people in my life really believe it. I been struggling fighting supress the outdated both pysically and mentally especially traumatically.

I been given advice to be trouble maker by f**k self doubt and go self empowerment. Oh yes, i accepting how strong resistance i been throught and keep encouraging to take extra risk and get swag reward. The foes are cooked as roast poultry fowl and get doubt like they are chicken = meat sterotype treatment. Deal with it foes, suck it up.
It sound selfish but i had enough the self doubt that i want forbidden vibe check offered by my therapist.
I'm taking the advice!!!.