My anxiety and BPD have been duking it out in my head and ruining my physical and mental state.

I'm sorry i've not been chatty or posting, something happened during my therapy phone call and it just all fell apart.

Images returned, flashbacks from PTSD and also other trauma, I had a massive panic attack on the phone and we had to cut it short.

Sadly, it got worse throughout the day, then the night....then the break/meltdown happened.

I am so disappointed in myself for snapping and becoming unstable, so i'm in a huge state of guilt, pain and just distress atm.

Commissions will be dealt with, I just need a little time to fix up my head and tend to the pain issues in my body before It gets worse.

I'm sorry i've been so lost, I was going so well and I was told not to feel bad for slipping off the path of healing but it feels bad, man.

I'll be okay, thank you so much for your support and care, it means a lot to me.

Those who know me, know I won't let it beat me but its given me a good kicking while i'm down so picking myself up is the next thing.

Chronic Pain issues feel nasty right now as its reared its ugly head again during this time. I apologise if things seem uncertain.

Things get worse to get better, right?

It sucks that way.

But I appreciate all of you, so thank you very much. <3

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-- Thrasher / Wolfie

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