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My Apologies Once Again And About Myself
8 months ago
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To many of my friends and other users on every social media sites, although I already apologize about more and more inactivity that I haven't been online on Twitter/X, FA, DA, Mastodon, Bluesky, and Instagram more often from the past years, not only I'm still struggling with too much personal stuff non-stop, but also dealing with family stuff and other real life stuff between the past and the present. I'm gonna be honest, I'm not proud of myself for wasting too much time and almost wasting my life away with too much procrastinations and more personal stuff that I kept struggling nonstop over the past 3 years and those two causes me to be online and offline at the same time on my phone and on social media each day and night and causes me to be unable to focus on my life goals that I'm about to start achieving such as starting to get a job to save up money to buy a car, my own house, and other stuff to buy and getting started on learning and practicing how to draw my sonas, my OCs, and other stuff to draw. I know it's not my fault, but it's so hard not to keep struggling and dwelling with too much personal stuff, like, nonstop over the past years. But then again, I always keep moving forward and move past from everything without struggling and dwelling more in full circle.
Furthermore, I'm kind of worried that some or many of my friends might unfollow/unwatch me on every social media sites I'm using and not talking to me anymore that they think I'm lying after I shared my encouragement to my friends and everyone on my recent FA journal I submitted years ago and they also think I'm careless. To be honest, I will never be careless to my friends and everyone and their stuff they posted on Twitter/X, FA, DA, Mastodon, Bluesky, and Instagram, as well as Telegram. Just because I got a habit of being inactive too much, haven't posted more of my sona while I'm in the process of learning how to draw, and haven't comment on my friends' arts, posts, and journals due to too much struggles and family problems, that doesn't mean I'm actually careless to my friends and everybody and their stuff. But with more effort, I'll always get back on track to continue focusing and to continue to stay focused on my life goals until I finally reached my life goals eventually soon. It may be a very long time to reach my goals until achievement like being an artist and living my own house, because learning to draw may be hard and house prices are so expensive these days, but I'm not going to give up my hopes and my dreams, so I will keep moving forward harder.
On the other hand, about myself that I've been thinking and dwelling a few years ago is that I'm not proud of myself as a furry, a scalie, and a Pokefurry, even as my sona, that I've been having too much problems and jealousies with some of my friends and other furs with their stuff from the past years and been having problems with stuff from the past years before and during the pandemic, because I realized that I was living in the past as the world entered the 2020s. Sometimes, it's hard to adjust when it comes to art stuff and furry-related stuff, even when I miss the old days back in my childhood years of the 2000s and my high school years of the 2010s. But it's already all in the past, now that I already moved on and already started living in the present instead of the past, especially after the pandemic. It's not fun and wise for me to stick in the past and dwelling with too much sadness and other negative stuff, but hey, I moved on, changed myself, and now living a good and better life without any more jealousies and other negative things as of 2023.
Another thing about myself is I wanted to make my life as a furry, a scalie, and a Pokefurry to be perfect just like my friends and the rest of the furries, especially their stuff they got and everything, but sometimes, my life isn't perfect, because nobody's perfect and not every furries are rich and successful. Not only I'm still living in low income, which I'm from South Carolina and is one of the low income states in the U.S., but I'm still living with my family while being a furry/scalie/Pokefurry in private since I joined the furry fandom back in 2015, because my parents and my siblings doesn't accept me that I'm a furry. But that doesn't mean I stopped being a furry and it won't stop me from being a furry while living with my parents, so I'm still not giving up on my life as a furry/scalie/Pokefurry.
In conclusion, I'm not going to keep wasting my time and my life with too much struggles and too much dwelling between the past and the present and the time is now for me to continue on my life goals and other stuff like learning to draw, getting a job, and other goals.
Furthermore, I'm kind of worried that some or many of my friends might unfollow/unwatch me on every social media sites I'm using and not talking to me anymore that they think I'm lying after I shared my encouragement to my friends and everyone on my recent FA journal I submitted years ago and they also think I'm careless. To be honest, I will never be careless to my friends and everyone and their stuff they posted on Twitter/X, FA, DA, Mastodon, Bluesky, and Instagram, as well as Telegram. Just because I got a habit of being inactive too much, haven't posted more of my sona while I'm in the process of learning how to draw, and haven't comment on my friends' arts, posts, and journals due to too much struggles and family problems, that doesn't mean I'm actually careless to my friends and everybody and their stuff. But with more effort, I'll always get back on track to continue focusing and to continue to stay focused on my life goals until I finally reached my life goals eventually soon. It may be a very long time to reach my goals until achievement like being an artist and living my own house, because learning to draw may be hard and house prices are so expensive these days, but I'm not going to give up my hopes and my dreams, so I will keep moving forward harder.
On the other hand, about myself that I've been thinking and dwelling a few years ago is that I'm not proud of myself as a furry, a scalie, and a Pokefurry, even as my sona, that I've been having too much problems and jealousies with some of my friends and other furs with their stuff from the past years and been having problems with stuff from the past years before and during the pandemic, because I realized that I was living in the past as the world entered the 2020s. Sometimes, it's hard to adjust when it comes to art stuff and furry-related stuff, even when I miss the old days back in my childhood years of the 2000s and my high school years of the 2010s. But it's already all in the past, now that I already moved on and already started living in the present instead of the past, especially after the pandemic. It's not fun and wise for me to stick in the past and dwelling with too much sadness and other negative stuff, but hey, I moved on, changed myself, and now living a good and better life without any more jealousies and other negative things as of 2023.
Another thing about myself is I wanted to make my life as a furry, a scalie, and a Pokefurry to be perfect just like my friends and the rest of the furries, especially their stuff they got and everything, but sometimes, my life isn't perfect, because nobody's perfect and not every furries are rich and successful. Not only I'm still living in low income, which I'm from South Carolina and is one of the low income states in the U.S., but I'm still living with my family while being a furry/scalie/Pokefurry in private since I joined the furry fandom back in 2015, because my parents and my siblings doesn't accept me that I'm a furry. But that doesn't mean I stopped being a furry and it won't stop me from being a furry while living with my parents, so I'm still not giving up on my life as a furry/scalie/Pokefurry.
In conclusion, I'm not going to keep wasting my time and my life with too much struggles and too much dwelling between the past and the present and the time is now for me to continue on my life goals and other stuff like learning to draw, getting a job, and other goals.
*hugs*