Hey guys!
It's been a while since I used Journals, although I never really did in the first place. I often find that journals feel like shouting into the void, which isn't the case, but it means they tend to exhaust me to write.
Really doing most of my 'online presence stuff' feels like more trouble than it's worth, it's one of the main reasons I'm not super active.

I'm going to try to change that, I know that I can be pretty shy about reaching out and being present on my social medias, some of that is just the distaste for social media in general, and some of that is just genuinely having no idea what I should say in any of these spaces... but I want to try!

Life updates for me are all a little grim, unfortunately, I live in the US (GAG). So I'm dealing with all of the garbage that's come with politics from the fucking dark ages. Let me be COMPLETELY CLEAR, although up until this point I have never really talked politics, I do not support the leaders of my country in any fashion. I feel like I'm on a train to hell with no way off it, and I can't do anything other than shout to those living in other countries that I didn't start this fucking fire and I'm trying my best to do what I can do about it, and I'm so sorry. If you support these people, I kindly-firmly, as you to leave, because my content is not for you.

Now that that's out of the way-I've been fighting a pretty nasty combo of depression, burn out, and money stress. My partner is out of the job, because the business they were working for went totally bankrupt and they have been looking for almost a year for something new. So far, things have been okay with my support on my Patreon, and the work I can pick up here and there through that. But, that means I am the primary income, and I really don't make a lot. Luckily, we rent from two other individuals, and we are in a safe position with no immediate threat of losing our home. However, with me being the primary income, it means that I work, a LOT and I have been taking on A LOT of work to try to cover the costs of living in the Hellscape of a country we are in, all while trying to continue being creative, and not burn out.
As you can imagine, it's been a lot of stress.

But I will make it through this, and I'm working hard to stay positive in the things I can be positive about.

I am trying to catch up with my posting, because I've been falling behind for a long, long time, and suddenly being primary income, and depression, has made me want to post my artwork even less than before. I can't help but constantly think 'what's even the point?'. Which isn't helpful. As it sits right now, I am LITERALLY over a year behind on posting, my content you see here is over a year old, and will likely stay fairly behind. I am considering doing some reworking of my public Discord, because I don't use it at all, and don't like the lay out- so that will be coming sometime this year as well.

I have moved completely to Bluesky, the only Twitter I have is all but abandoned, and it's only there still so that I have my name on the site. I really enjoy bluesky, even though I'm still struggling to be active there. All of my Commissions, and work open up over on my Patreon discord before anywhere else, and often, it's the only place that I take work anymore. So if you're looking to get something, that's the best place to find me.

I really appreciate all the support I've gotten from this community, and all the lovely people I've met. I still feel like I'm fighting to find a style or a place for my art, but it feels much easier here on FA. I'm going to do my best to be more active in my public spaces, and I hope that you'll consider sticking around while I figure stuff out, and try to get a handle on the metric shit ton of art I have backed up that needs to be posted.

Feel free to say hi in the comments! Tell me how you've been! Maybe give me a little nice thing that's happened in your life. <3