i like that the queer experience gets more complicated the deeper you dive. people are fascinating. sometimes i love the ways they seem to contradict themselves. wouldn't it be great if we could all get along AND not have to change? i think i actually love people.

except tyler that guy sucks ass and i'm still very angry at him for fucking up my front lawn with his stupid phone screen truck pretending like there's an app for landscaping. i could have tied a monkey to a metal pole and had the monkey do the work and it would have been infinitely better than that schmuck's tasteless garbage. didn't even listen when i told him what i want, and no i'm still not paying that asshole- he should be paying me for all the mature bushes he ripped out. i'm ashamed of my yard now and have to rip all this fucking "decorative grass", whatever in the braindead 2010s that means, and stupid cheap-ass idiotplants out now thanks to that fuckbag, i hope he gets thrown in a woodchiper. those rhododendrons were old enough to drink and were grown from clippings of the one at my grandma's house, he deserves the chair.