I knew after losing all friends and family and lovers and home, the future would continue to get darker and void to the point self-preservation wanes sometimes. And recently, after my brother's incarceration. Now, for sure, a definitive edition, my family will have a definitive and justified reason to take it out on me. It was my brother's ex-wife's actions that threw him in there. But oh no. It was my fault because I brought a curse on this family, because I'm Satan in disguise. Just like they Don't Talk About Bruno in the Madrigal family because he causes bad stuff to happen because of his future visions. Well, that's me right there. Just because of me existing bad stuff happens to this family. Mom got divorced, brother's wives and kids left him, sister has seizures, they find valid justifications and proof of that, and I can't defend myself. Silence your pain. If your family hurts you, it doesn't matter, you don't matter, take care of them. Support your family, don't complain and obey, and you must be in their image. If my family hurts me and asks me not to be my true self. Bury those emotions. Now I'm at the point that I'm crying, welcoming the judge in the courtroom gave me three options. Permanent mental hospitalization, permanent incarceration, or capital death penalty. At this point, I'm welcoming those options with open arms. I'm close to full rock bottom more worse than a homeless person. Even my dreams and subconscious are very clear about the definitive future. Volcano dreams can be expressions of anxiety and a warning against extreme emotions, but they can also be a powerful symbol of potential and transformation. And the eruption represents the repression of emotions. It suggests the dreamer's awareness of their own repressed urges, fears, or inner turmoil, and they are going to erupt in an extreme, out-of-control way.