Howdy

So im gonna be honest to you all

At one point in my life, I was diagnosed as a psychopath, later on in the year, it was re-diagnosed as borderline personality disorder, however looking at it closer in recent months, I wonder if that original diagnosis was correct

A couple of days ago, as of writing this, My training company has pulled me aside to "Discuss" other potential career pathways, because they brought up how I am Too clinical speaking and tend to lack empathy towards client's in questions.

It was further ramified today when a friendship I had with a client broke down, they said I was sadistic during RP, and I told them why it could potentially be happening, about my mental state, what caught me though, was that I was not aware, I was not aware that I was being sadistic, it confused me.

For nearly as long as I can remember, I could not feel remorse until now, when a person who I felt like I was genuinely friends with, having it crumble before me, I felt something that I hadn't felt in while.

I felt remorse

Right now, I psychically don't know how to process this, or how to react to it.

I am taking a break from art for a bit, I will still try to complete current commissions but it will be completed at a slower pace

For now, Im not sure how things will go

Alex