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3 months ago
🖤🩸🖤 I WANNA PROVE MY LOVE BEFORE I LEAVE
I WANNA MAKE YOU COME AND SCRAPE MY KNEES
WANT YOU TO BITE MY TONGUE UNTIL I BLEED
AND YOU CAN PUT THESE FUCKING WORDS IN MY OBITUARY 🖤🩸🖤
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Hey guys, its been a short while, eh?
Sorry i'm not more chatty or anything, I really am trying to be more active n' all but my mind and mental health just isn't great.
I'm riddled with depression, anxiety various other factors that won't let me settle anymore. Not to sound dramatic...but a lot is still going on.
I recently had a falling out with an old friend, I dont know what happened but I can't process it as I dont know what went on or understand it all.
I've had a fall, spraining my shoulder in the process, but i'm healing from that slowly. Thankfully not my drawing arm.
I'm still concerned about the situation going on with my bestie, of which we're still being hounded and stalked.
Really feeling bad about things of late, not to mention I don't feel good enough for anyone anymore...it stings but its hard to ignore those evil little voices in my head.
Thing is, I just want a bit of peace and I still can't find it. Not even with sleep or naps...things chase me down even when I feel safe enough to rest up.
I really am trying to not beat myself up, but its hard.
BPD symptoms have been a major problem...I can't control much of it anymore.
I've been avoiding therapy, because they want me to do zoom calls and its hard for me to even interact with people, let alone strangers online on camera.
I just have no drive, nothing is keeping me happy and my hobbies, my passions fall short of anything....
Commissions will remain closed for a little longer, I just can't bring myself to work for others , paid work feels stressful and i'm so sorry i'm letting people down.
I really do want to get back to arting for people, I miss you guys.
With me self-esteem being so broken and stuff, its probably best I don't until I feel confident enough to do so.
Just wishing I could break out of this and be the person I need to be.
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- Thrasher / Wolfie
xx
Sorry i'm not more chatty or anything, I really am trying to be more active n' all but my mind and mental health just isn't great.
I'm riddled with depression, anxiety various other factors that won't let me settle anymore. Not to sound dramatic...but a lot is still going on.
I recently had a falling out with an old friend, I dont know what happened but I can't process it as I dont know what went on or understand it all.
I've had a fall, spraining my shoulder in the process, but i'm healing from that slowly. Thankfully not my drawing arm.
I'm still concerned about the situation going on with my bestie, of which we're still being hounded and stalked.
Really feeling bad about things of late, not to mention I don't feel good enough for anyone anymore...it stings but its hard to ignore those evil little voices in my head.
Thing is, I just want a bit of peace and I still can't find it. Not even with sleep or naps...things chase me down even when I feel safe enough to rest up.
I really am trying to not beat myself up, but its hard.
BPD symptoms have been a major problem...I can't control much of it anymore.
I've been avoiding therapy, because they want me to do zoom calls and its hard for me to even interact with people, let alone strangers online on camera.
I just have no drive, nothing is keeping me happy and my hobbies, my passions fall short of anything....
Commissions will remain closed for a little longer, I just can't bring myself to work for others , paid work feels stressful and i'm so sorry i'm letting people down.
I really do want to get back to arting for people, I miss you guys.
With me self-esteem being so broken and stuff, its probably best I don't until I feel confident enough to do so.
Just wishing I could break out of this and be the person I need to be.
-
- Thrasher / Wolfie
xx
And on chatting take your time.