Kinda. But at least i can be focused on something else now besides constant grieving and thinking about last days before her passing. It was like an endless nightmare when you are stuck in a loop of self-blaming for many things at once. Especially when i didn't felt so well myself through the whole winter season and didn't gave her then much more proper attention.

I saw my cat in my dreams today and she looked much more healthy, calm and happy than usual - just like at her more younger age 💖 And it gave me a sense of relief.