Well Happy July to you AviZergen, might as well throw your Australians the freakin' summer heat and give me back the winter cold. That would be nice but I digress.

No worries, many people need breaks here and there (I can't tell you how many burnouts, or outright lack of motivations I've had for the past 10 years AviZergen...Benn there done that). So it's not a big deal on my end if you're not online all the time, it happens to many of us regardless of the country each and every one of us lives in.

Watchers will eventually come back, even I didn't get many subscribers on Youtube until years and years later. And I've been doing some livestreams recently on twitch and youtube this year (from the Youtube's 20th anniversary, to planning some audiobooks of my stories in the near future). Plus, United State's birthday of July 4th is around the corner...And also, July 1st, I didn't forget this time, is Canada Day, also known formerly as Dominion Day....(and Juicy July for those in the you know that type of community AviZergen)....

Regardless, if you do make artwork in the future, take your time and I'm sure people will check it out eventually. But FurAffinity has made changes, same with Youtube and Twitch, for the past 4 months now.

I will give you my Winter in a very slow process haha!

Yeah so much really took on my toll that I needed someone to speak to about how I am feeling right now, I really did felt burnt out as I dare say being online made me have negative thoughts that I really needed a deep break, especially in uncertain times where we live in the community are willing to speak crap and spreading hate, I don't get involved or discuss matters like this but this isn't why I was brought down.

While I really won't go into much detail with me getting to the point where I came out of my true core, I do like to mention that I had made mistakes in the past and I like to admit I was so fake... while I did learn from them, my sleep and energy is not how it used to be, I suffered from anxiety a bit much and while I am improving myself I need to take off time as much as I need to help regain my sanity and not do anything I will regret, the process takes time and at any time if I come back online, I will begin to come back slowly until I am fully prepped and be used to my activities again, I said this a bit much already so I shouldn't let it get to me.

I'm not worried about watchers honestly as people like to move onto different things if they don't see what they expect from me, if I do really fully return it will be like starting from scratch, as I really have a creative mind I'll climb to the top and earn watchers back or earn new ones, with my very own personal content and if they don't like what they see, it's not for them.

These days I am thinking more on myself for my well being and I check up on some friends online once in a while, if anybody would accept me for who I am and the content I like to make, it's all the support that matters who actually wants me to keep going.

The last time I wrote a Journal like this I received no comments and had a feeling that people might have moved on.... it did kill my motivation to make something new, not just that but with AI technology getting more advanced especially with artwork, the addiction of it is getting dangerous.... I'm at least happy that you took the time to comment on this Journal of mine.

I had noticed the changes FA had made and if I upload something new I have again, as long as people comes to check it out, it makes my day, I do know if I continue to be myself in sharing my own personal content, I just know popularity builds up by itself, hope this reply clears most things up.

Thanks man! I will continue to take all the time I need, after all a timeline to get back online is just a number, but I know someday I will have a comeback!

Heh, it would be awesome to see it happen later this year, that's for sure.

Mmm, sorry to hear that man. I was going through that process back in 2013 but in a mental insanity/anger/hatred type of way. I thankfully moved on from it in 2023, but as you would later say in your journal, I can't tell you how much I've become a bit lazy and having lack of sleep myself (Something I've struggled with for the past 10 to 20 years now). But just take things at a time and it'll work out eventually.

(Hugs you) Heeyy no worries, even if I haven't checked out your content in a while, our conversations still rocks to this very day Avizergen...I accept your apologizes, I couldn't even tell it was fake or not, but you don't have to really do that just to appeal to some audience that will never come. Believe me Avi, for many years when I did Youtube between 2011 and 2015, not many people commented on my News Update, or even cared for the stuff I've posted. But nowadays I can't be looked at without people seeing me as the channel that has wonka content. But ever since March 2018, I've been slow to upload stuff simply because, well, there really was no point in doing so, if I can find other stuff to watch that's 4 times better than me. So I went back to commenting for a while until March 2024 when I eventually came back. I still have the plans I've made from 2020 onward, just that it'll take time to get it to exist/be made and finished. But The lack of sleep, combined with not doing much energy during the day, and ending up being a nigh owl has pretty much caused my entire sleep cycle to be akin to the timezone of the Philippines and Japan (that's how bad it's gotten on my end), not because of the soda, but more likely due to the internet/computer time I spend on it.

As for the A.I. post, I actually did read it but I was going to comment on it originally, and I never got around to doing it. To be honest, I did have a chat with you about it on dA compared to here, so that's why I didn't want to repeat myself here as I would on dA and such (it's the same thing with the other person who's also on both dA and FA), and I can understand how frustrating it is as an artist that people are doing A.I., or as I like to call it "Artificial Media Generating Bots", which allows talentless and scam artists to flourish without consequences, yet, much like how the music industry was killed via streaming and software programs that download videos and music, this artificial program, if it does excel, will cause nearly 50% of jobs, not just from entertainment but from many of the industries, to not require humans at all in their companies (Which really sucks since I wouldn't be surprised if this was part of Agenda 2030, but I digress). In my opinion Artificial Intelligence is basically the company's last stance to get rid of humans altogether so they can pocket the money for themselves (It's this reason why my "Voice And Sound Transfer" idea in March 2012, while it sounded good on paper, I knew the issues it would be brought up, in terms of stealing voice actor's voices for copyright infringement, moral and privacy issues, and governments using it to spy/mimic familiar voices with my device, is the reason why I never pushed forward to make that device a reality 13 years back ).....(Sighs)....So I can get what you're saying, which is why I refuse to use the program very often. I've only used it for Text To Speech words and changing black and white photos and videos to color (Just for fun) and that's about as far as I will use it. But for many younger generations nowadays, it feels like the program is now part of their "essential" life, that their Intellectual Qualities have dropped significantly, leading to pretty much an epidemic of very low IQ individuals, akin to that of a severely autistic person if it does get worse (and to be honest, I've been there and know exactly what it's like to deal with low functioning autistic individuals, and it's a freakin' nightmare)....Again, if I were you, I would just continue to keep on making your own unique, and loving artwork of characters you have created yourself, because A.I. can't make their own stuff, they have to be "Spoonfed" by humans in order to function. And even then, it either becomes worse, or too good for it's own kind it feeds off of.

Ahh okay....I only mentioned it because that's how it was on my youtube channel for quite some time now. But needless to say, it's a massive change now compared to ten years back, when you used to be under your old account before moving on to Avizergen.

"I had noticed the changes FA had made and if I upload something new I have again, as long as people comes to check it out, it makes my day,"...Awwww, if that's what you care the most, then I will be glad to do so form here on out. But again, I'm sure with your mental and emotional well being, I do hope it does get better, but it does take time. As for me, the lack of sleep is a massive work in progress that either I care to change, or continue to suffer. That's on me......But Avi, you don't have to fake it like this at all...Ever since I had my youtube channel in 2010, and DA in 2012, I never, EVER, faked my own personality or look of my channel in the first place, I did my own thing....I don't know why you went for it when you could have been yourself, were you trying to fit in with the online crowd or something???.....I don't know....But by seeing you open up more (which you can easily DM or send me a message in Discrod about it if you like), it goes to show that you do like it when people do check out your stuff or have a nice chat with you. I can see why this means a lot especially on the extroverted side of your personality, it makes sense.

No problem Avizergen, sorry if I didn't comment on your other journals, I have read them and what you have stated there, I did agree with and I didn't have anything else to comment further on those posts, hence no comments from me. BUT, I did save those posts and bookmark them so I don't end up losing them. So even if I don't comment on your journal, just letting you know that I do save them, either because I like them a lot or I will get around to commenting on them at some point down the road (just not now)....Anyway, take care out there Avi (Hugs you), and be well and happy out there.

It's okay, it happens to the best of all of us and we all needed a break every now and then, as long as it helps us out with our moods.

Being somebody else other than myself was the biggest mistake and you are right when you say I could have been myself, realistically it's never too late to set things right, besides the recent art I uploaded actually came from my true feelings and are better than before, not really proud of my old artwork but I still appreciate how it got me to where it is today and I can see people also like my newest work more better, I went silent for a while to make sure I felt fully moved on from my toxic past, besides it could have been worse more than someone else.

Something should be done to improve safety with AI even if there are profits involved from it, besides it robs commissioners of their rightful income so I'd encourage to keep on supporting real artists, there are still some things AI cannot replicate no matter how good it gets.

The real reason I choose to make art is because I really love the activity, plus it helped me get me out of dark times and made me not think about reality too much, when I get back to it I know it would actually help get me back to my former state with loveable characters I had created myself, Rico, Nyx, Uthy and many others, they deserve their own adventures, despite me not making art for some time I still have an urge to make something productive, my mind will always stay that way and it wouldn't be hard to make this an occupation, if I set myself the right path of course.

It's alright don't worry about not commenting on other Journals or stuff, I am pretty much used to having nil comments since that happens with most of my artwork, but seeing people fave my work it still makes me happy, I know having comments are better as you want to know what they like about our art and helps with the algorithm but we gotta understand that not everyone has something to say, that's why the fave feature exists and I wouldn't want to be on any art site that doesn't have that.

Despite me being more myself while online nowadays I will still represent myself in a form of a dragon, after all I am such a character all this time, heh! ~

Thanks friend, having this conversation really helps me put in a calming mood, I try to maintain myself and push myself to feel better in the coming days, I will also sleep at the right times too to make sure I am well rested before my next project. *hugs you warmly*

Yeah, that's for sure.

Yeah I don't know why you went down that path in the first place, because even when I started back in 2012 and 2010 respectively, I never wanted to put myself in someone else's shoes or be a different personality than what I truly am. So it was best for me to be honest and open. But you're now starting to see it's not working out for you, so I'm glad you're turning yourself around to be who you truly are, and that's fantastic....As for the last part of this statement before the A.I./Artificial Creations that take out every part of human life (if I would say so myself), it makes sense why you went dark for a bit before coming back. But I would say that's for the best if you didn't have any more ideas of where to go next with your characters. So suffice to say, it does look as if you're somewhat improving on your mindset, it just takes time.

Well not just A.I. but also the age verification thing that's been going on for the past two/three years, considering there are others like Random who are very concerned about it (myself included), and it's most likely due to a possibility of our full identities exposed to the entire world and thus, could never get our life back together. These governments will be in a rude awakening someday when those people in power have their identity stolen in the future, and then start to realize that "Age-Verification" was a mistake to install in the first place. And as for Artificial Intelligence, for some reason many countries, including the U.S. tend to be slow on regulating these programs, to where now there's Artificial Generating Content Farms (aka Artificial Intelligent Content Farms) that post quantity and squish out the true talented people in favor of the other ones...Hopefully there's a chance it can be restricted, but both Artificial Intelligence and Age-Verification are treading dangerous waters for people who wish to be anonymous, while not being subjected to quantity and "easy-to-make" content and art, to take the user's attention away from the true talented, and unique artists that have been on here years prior to the 2020s.

That makes sense, and I'm sure it was the same for me in terms of writing, though I didn't get too serious about it until November 2014, after a three to five year hiatus from drawing my stories a lot. I hope that by being able to draw more again, you'll introduce characters that you had from 2023 and before, to see them again in wacky or wholesome artwork (even if I don't check it, at least I see the artwork and bookmark/comment it at least).

Thanks, I always have this feeling I would need to do it once, but sometimes it may be best to do it in DMs if I wanted to go much longer than usual. But yeah, it makes sense of what gets popular or what tends to peak user's interests compared to your other works.

Of course, why wouldn't you want to be the icon that some users already know you for what you work on? For me I haven't changed my icon since I started on FA 11 years back. So yeah, continue to do it because it does help with recognizability (unless another journal update occurs that mentions a change on the profile/user's artpage/art channel and such.

You're very welcome AviZergen. Drop a DM in either deviantART, FurAffinity, or even my discord that I have on most of the time whenever you need to have another talk (Just remember that I may be slow, but that's due to real life, and also, trying, TRYING, to catch up with over 300+ youtube tabs, and content I wish to get through with, including videos from a year or more ago, or even a few months to a few days ago as well. Just keep that in mind that's all). Again, whenever you need someone to talk to, just drop a message in notes or Direct Messages/Personal Messages whenever you want, I'll be there to answer as soon as possible. =D =)

Happy 1st day of July, Avi. It's great to know you're taking really good care of yourself.

I am pretty much, things are getting better than what it used to be, thanks bud ~

You're welcome, mate! ^^