Not only in the literal sense, but also in the figurative sense--in almost every aspect of the word. This year OVERALL has been a taxing one so far (pun not intended for those of us who sadly are in the US rn) but the past two months or so are also beginning to take their toll; or rather they have been TAKING that toll for that period of time roughly. My creative drive is all-but-dead; my memory losses/spaceouts are getting worse; I have NO motivation to work on shit and as a result I'm making MYSELF feel guilty, which is in-turn just making matters worse in that field.

Like I haven't got a decent night's sleep for over the past week or so, and my sleep schedule's been fucked for...so long that I actually forgot.

The worst part is that I HAVE the inspiration, and that's annoying as fuck because I have a lot of ideas/things I would like to draw/work on but I just blank out completely whenever I attempt to do so. And I feel like I'm rusty now because of it, BADLY, so...low self-confidence/esteem/human value issues, cool.

I have plans to upload some more pics here (most, if not all, backlog from the last few months/year(s)?) but I did want to provide an update about the disappearance. :\


Chances are things will improve over time--at least my mental/emotional state--but I tired right now, and have been for awhile

I'm so tired T_T