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In the middle of a bad dream last night...
16 years ago
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I woke up crying
Trek and I went to go beat up some people
[Not that that's something we would do]
But during the fight I broke one of these peoples PSP
And in return they stabbed me with a used needle
[I don't know if it was for drug or medication purposes]
And then I found myself in a waiting room that seemed kinda like a damp and dingy jail - like how they show it in the movies
And a nurse walked up to me - sat down, and told me that AIDs were transferred to me through the needle...
At first I was angry - how could this person do this to me?
Just because I broke their PSP - you go and give me your sickness
Something that can't be fixed or bought again
And then I thought of Trek - and how I would never be able to be with him again
I wouldn't want him to get sick or anything...
And it made me really angry and I started crying
It hurt so bad and my heart was broken - thinking about how something so special could have easily been taken away from me
I started crying in my sleep and woke up crying
I woke up crying with Trek laying next to me
And I just held him...
I laid there for about an hour just holding him
And remembering how special and important he is to me
And just how much of my heart he holds
He is an amazing boy and I hope nothing ever comes between us
I Love You
Trek and I went to go beat up some people
[Not that that's something we would do]
But during the fight I broke one of these peoples PSP
And in return they stabbed me with a used needle
[I don't know if it was for drug or medication purposes]
And then I found myself in a waiting room that seemed kinda like a damp and dingy jail - like how they show it in the movies
And a nurse walked up to me - sat down, and told me that AIDs were transferred to me through the needle...
At first I was angry - how could this person do this to me?
Just because I broke their PSP - you go and give me your sickness
Something that can't be fixed or bought again
And then I thought of Trek - and how I would never be able to be with him again
I wouldn't want him to get sick or anything...
And it made me really angry and I started crying
It hurt so bad and my heart was broken - thinking about how something so special could have easily been taken away from me
I started crying in my sleep and woke up crying
I woke up crying with Trek laying next to me
And I just held him...
I laid there for about an hour just holding him
And remembering how special and important he is to me
And just how much of my heart he holds
He is an amazing boy and I hope nothing ever comes between us
I Love You
Yeah - it was a bit scary...
And I don't think it would have happened anyways xD
But it's nice to know that little piece of info!~
That often happens with me...
^^;
You have someone special in your life that you truly love, and I envy you x3 *snuggles*
btw, are you guys going to FC? ^^;;
But I am glad it was just a dream
And I feel very lucky to have Trek in my life ^^
-hugs back-
And nope ;x
We usually only attend:
Morphicon, Anthrocon, and Furnival
Then MFM when we can
And this year MAYBE Indy Fur Con
I might hit AC in 2012 though ^^;;
I think we may live too far apart ;x
And that would be awesome!~
AC is gonna be kind of a 21st birfday to mahself, since it's a major numbah x3
It really is amazing how your train of thoughts went from you going out to beat up some people, to the breaking of the PSP, being stabbed by a needle, contracting AIDs and finally to your concerns for Trek.
I mean, did your brain know where the story was going from the onset, or did it just sort of make it up as it went along?
At least it was just a dream, and if nothing else, it really reaffirmed your feelings and commitment to Trek. If nothing else, you should be glad to see that your subconscious has no doubts at all about your feelings for Trek.
I makes me think of my boyfriend,
I got upset when he was half asleep and he was waking from a dream but was still half in it and confused me for a girl he used to be madly in love with, but is still good friends with.
I got so upset I started crying and then he fully woke up and didn't remember saying it and didn't know why I was crying,
he started freaking out it was really cute xD
moral of the story, don't break PSP, it has aids >.>
good to have someone to wake up to and hold though. Really glad that it was all a dream.