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Things you should know about me
3 months ago
I’m considering this a story and more of an event update as to what has been going on in my life that has made me into who I am today.
The events go back as far as childhood and up to as recently as a few days ago.
When I was young, I was spoiled by an entitled mother who would give me anything I wanted. Hence, I would expect mostly almost everything to fall into my lap. But, that’s not how the world works. My mindset has persisted ever since I was young to today and every now and then I get random bouts of entitlement and feeling spoiled I can’t control.
I want to try and cut out those feelings because I remember one time my mother suddenly snapped at me and went off so violently that it had traumatized me. And from this day forward I never want anything to do with her.
Luckily, she was divorced and I lived in a responsible household to learn respect and kindness. Albeit, it was at first difficult since I was transferring from the spoiled mindset to the proper mindset but over time I had completely cut off my mother and I thought I had cut off my entitled side with her.
But, it seems the random entitlement always seems to come back when I least expect it.
As of recently, I have taken a step back, looked at myself, and finally recognized I had this problem and I am going to take the necessary steps to fix it. Which means that if there are any moments when I’m just upset or feeling jealous or selfish, my entitlement is coming back. But I’ll be trying to subdue it and hopefully I won’t have to deal with it anymore.
I know it’s not a valid excuse for any actions I take because those are my own responsibilities which I will accept respectfully. I just feel that it should be proper to let everyone know of this mental problem I’m currently trying to solve. If push comes to shove, I would rather not want to end up like my mother.
On a second note, it’s been about a month and I should’ve posted this sooner but my father has had a heart attack which truly affected me to my core. I didn’t know what I would do if I had lost him and it felt utterly terrible for the first few weeks.
But in the recent times, he luckily has managed to get better and he should be getting stronger than he was before the heart attack. He’s had a lot of problems to deal with and right now I’m so grateful to have him as a father.
If you read to this far, I thank you for reading and your support if you wish to give some. I’m not going to force any tips nor do I want to burden anyone with keeping up with me or my life. Just know that life is special and precious, do with it what you can and love those around you because you might not know how long you have left with them.
The events go back as far as childhood and up to as recently as a few days ago.
When I was young, I was spoiled by an entitled mother who would give me anything I wanted. Hence, I would expect mostly almost everything to fall into my lap. But, that’s not how the world works. My mindset has persisted ever since I was young to today and every now and then I get random bouts of entitlement and feeling spoiled I can’t control.
I want to try and cut out those feelings because I remember one time my mother suddenly snapped at me and went off so violently that it had traumatized me. And from this day forward I never want anything to do with her.
Luckily, she was divorced and I lived in a responsible household to learn respect and kindness. Albeit, it was at first difficult since I was transferring from the spoiled mindset to the proper mindset but over time I had completely cut off my mother and I thought I had cut off my entitled side with her.
But, it seems the random entitlement always seems to come back when I least expect it.
As of recently, I have taken a step back, looked at myself, and finally recognized I had this problem and I am going to take the necessary steps to fix it. Which means that if there are any moments when I’m just upset or feeling jealous or selfish, my entitlement is coming back. But I’ll be trying to subdue it and hopefully I won’t have to deal with it anymore.
I know it’s not a valid excuse for any actions I take because those are my own responsibilities which I will accept respectfully. I just feel that it should be proper to let everyone know of this mental problem I’m currently trying to solve. If push comes to shove, I would rather not want to end up like my mother.
On a second note, it’s been about a month and I should’ve posted this sooner but my father has had a heart attack which truly affected me to my core. I didn’t know what I would do if I had lost him and it felt utterly terrible for the first few weeks.
But in the recent times, he luckily has managed to get better and he should be getting stronger than he was before the heart attack. He’s had a lot of problems to deal with and right now I’m so grateful to have him as a father.
If you read to this far, I thank you for reading and your support if you wish to give some. I’m not going to force any tips nor do I want to burden anyone with keeping up with me or my life. Just know that life is special and precious, do with it what you can and love those around you because you might not know how long you have left with them.
