As some of you may know, the other weekend I posted a status from the ER. I went to the hospital in huge fear that I had another kidney stone flareup. The past month I was experiencing terrible back and abdominal pains that'd come and go. It got so bad that I had no other choice but to go and get checked out. After having a CT scan *breaaaaathe*- everything came back clear. They couldn't see anything bad thankfully. Guess in conclusion however from some blood tests that my vitamin levels were too damn low, I traded my potassium for chugging loads of water I suppose haha. Doctors said also I might've not been fully recovered from my surgeries in May so any heavy lifting and manual labor work is the cause of it as well.

However with all of that being said and done, man working my specific job stinks...especially while surviving these moments such as this and be given shit for it. My apologies for not being active much over socials and PM apps like Telegram/Discord. I don't want to vent too much cause I do like some aspects of my job, but I do wanna tie some reasonings as to why my health has been poor is because of my work to put it simply. Work stresses me out, like everyone else. It's been an usually busy summer. Higher ups has been up-my-ass simultaneously over the smallest of things. Ex. texting me outside of work to "Correct" mistakes that I'm sometimes and sometimes not responsible for, or wasn't even aware about. Telling me it's not okay to call out of a shift the day of when something like an emergency above occurs. Normally I'm able to chill and message friendos back, while being able to do said duties; but lately it's been too intense and overwhelming for me. To the point where once I get home I feel like a zombie corpse on autopilot, consuming whatever's on my YT feed, putting on anime and then passing the hell out. It's crazy what stress does to the body. I'm really hoping I can pull out of this slump, or even better...get a new job.

I don't know if any fellow shapeshifter or multiple oc owner mutuals can relate to this, it's rather been kinda uncomfortable to commission art of Goona too. TLDR had a buncha random people join my personal Discord server JUST for my Goona emotes, and then proceeded to spam very sexualized posts and memes. A similar situation happened like this earlier this year. Like I'm all fine when it comes to some silly goofy antics with my goober, that's what I'm here for is to have a goo'd time. I don't appreciate those tho that wanna worship a make-believe sona of mines and make everything about them to come off as s*x s*x s*x l00d l00d l00d horni horni horni. Being Goona has brought myself and friends some immense fun and joy however It makes me lose some taste in my own creation, could be just a me thing?

I'm doing a little better after all that's been unfolding. Hydrating, eating, going for walks here and there. I did wanna say a MASSIVE thank you to those that have been tuning into my once-in-a-while streams on Twitch. It's brought a big smile to my face even if I don't sound enthusiastic (trust me tho, I am!) over stream to see some familiar faces come vibe with the goo and enjoy my games. You guys are amazing and I do feel like I owe it to you to continue streaming once things simmer down <3 this also goes for some fanart I've recently got!

Only other note I got is I'll be attending Denfur next month. I'm hoping to treat this as a much-needed vacay. If anyone happens to spot me I'll be suiting as Minty and wearing a Revali head possibly~ thanks for reading, stay gooey out there!